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The Older Entries

2009-09-23 - A limerick from a husband to a wife
2009-09-22 - For Cynthia
2009-08-18 - a pondering of personality
2009-06-20 - digital footprints in a metaphorical sand
2009-04-27 - a simple statement of facts as they pop into my head.
2009-04-18 - a return to self-loathing causes the return of the blog.
2009-04-18 - Greetings
2009-01-20 - to ensure that my diary doesn't die
2008-04-14 - I strike out against the strike that struck out
2008-04-11 - Why I am awake.
2008-03-21 - i am desperate for your limericks
2008-03-19 - limerick week continues
2008-03-17 - send me your limericks!
2008-03-13 - limerick week 2008
2008-02-24 - i depress myself everytime i write. i should stop doing that.
2008-02-09 - wishful thinking
2008-02-05 - dead ends on all sides
2008-01-31 - when i can't sleep i take my brain for walks
2008-01-25 - 27
2008-01-19 - anniversary
2008-01-17 - the first thought of the morning
2008-01-14 - if my picture were in the dictionary it might be next to "fatalistic"
2008-01-11 - old ryan: resurrection
2007-12-11 - Fear not...
2007-09-15 - update
2007-07-27 - living in the gutter is only fun in dreams
2007-07-16 - science and magic
2007-07-02 - bringing down the house
2007-06-27 - seriously though
2007-06-24 - so, the truth is
2007-06-18 - normal
2007-06-18 - normal
2007-06-14 - a synopsis perhaps?
2007-05-17 - -
2007-05-17 - reconnecting
2007-05-17 - reconnecting
2007-05-17 - reconnecting
2007-05-17 - reconnecting
2007-05-17 - reconnecting
2007-05-17 - reconnecting
2007-05-17 - reconnecting
2007-05-17 - reconnecting
2007-04-29 - at least i tried to write something.
2007-04-27 - when on one really believes you
2007-04-27 - when on one really believes you
2007-04-22 - my 2:26 of fame
2007-04-09 - waiting
2007-04-08 - a chronicle
2007-04-07 - a very disjointed and probably unentertaining story.
2007-04-04 - the thirteen hour nap and other thoughts
2007-03-28 - goodbye, old friends
2007-03-27 - life is awesome.
2007-03-23 - last day of limericks
2007-03-22 - -
2007-03-21 - limerick week: day five
2007-03-20 - worries and woes
2007-03-20 - -
2007-03-19 - limerick week: day three
2007-03-18 - limerick week: day two
2007-03-17 - limerick week: day one
2007-03-16 - cover poem week: day four
2007-03-15 - cover poem week: day three
2007-03-14 - cover poem week: day two
2007-03-13 - cover poem week: day one
2007-03-09 - some very important updates.
2007-03-06 - carlsbad, nm.
2007-03-06 - carlsbad, nm.
2007-03-02 - the revolution begins
2007-03-02 - the revolution begins
2007-03-02 - the revolution begins
2007-02-26 - a goal set in the heart like a dagger.
2007-02-25 - bright reds, ash greys
2007-02-25 - bright reds, ash greys
2007-02-23 - good day.
2007-02-22 - martin vs. stallone
2007-02-21 - hello...
2007-02-20 - ms. coleman, with her minions of germs, has won yet again
2007-02-18 - -
2007-02-14 - carolyn
2007-02-07 - okay, paul
2007-02-01 - just a quick note
2007-01-30 - is there a meeting for this?
2007-01-30 - is there a meeting for this?
2007-01-24 - -
2007-01-22 - birthday eve
2007-01-22 - birthday eve
2007-01-22 - birthday eve
2007-01-20 - all my time is free
2007-01-19 - for amy
2007-01-18 - ashley and i
2007-01-15 - hello, i am mr. lame from lamerton. i
2007-01-13 - leave
2007-01-11 - say my name, say my name
2007-01-07 - i wonder if there is a pill to take to cure emo style entries
2007-01-04 - soon...
2006-12-30 - i am free as a bird...
2006-12-29 - i should type faster, i am becoming sober
2006-12-24 - carlsbad christmas
2006-12-22 - i always feel like this during winter.
2006-12-19 - -
2006-12-12 - "hit you one more time?" yeah, i'll hit you.
2006-12-08 - just more wishing, never any doing.
2006-12-04 - if i felt i was worty...
2006-11-30 - living the life of luxury
2006-11-29 - a day without an attention span
2006-11-23 - haiku to you
2006-11-21 - haiku: day two
2006-11-20 - haiku (gesundheit) week begins!
2006-11-18 - just talking.
2006-11-18 - just talking.
2006-11-14 - i am still awake.
2006-11-11 - an entry for my brother who seemed confused when we talked on the phone earlier
2006-11-08 - whats the frequency kenneth?
2006-10-28 - my first and last entry about her
2006-10-24 - somewhat inexpensive drinks on me!
2006-10-05 - announcement
2006-10-02 - i miss having friends
2006-09-17 - its a movie.
2006-09-13 - no time to time the time i have
2006-08-25 - i dont know what to title this.
2006-08-18 - so, okay, its been a while.
2006-07-12 - there i went
2006-07-07 - here i go.
2006-06-26 - pilgrimage
2006-06-23 - bohemia
2006-06-16 - the midnight disease (not yet a complete thought interuppted by a phone call i had to take.)
2006-06-06 - Miranda Velum. 22 oz. Coors Light, Extra complimentary bread,Spaghetti w/meatballs
2006-05-27 - just had to get it off my chest
2006-05-24 - now taking applications
2006-05-22 - oh, how i love them so.
2006-05-16 - if i spoke spanish this would be funny
2006-05-12 - to do
2006-05-10 - blip
2006-05-02 - our hero stops for a moment to dream
2006-05-01 - end of limerick week
2006-04-28 - hooray for limericks
2006-04-26 - limerick week continues (for about seven days total)
2006-04-25 - limerick week!
2006-04-24 - i just need a cigarette, damn it!
2006-04-20 - just in case you dont know how much i love myself, i am telling you now.
2006-04-20 - listless, restless, crazy
2006-04-10 - long distance relationship
2006-04-06 - wait for the applause, gather your tips
2006-03-31 - fake it till you make it
2006-03-30 - concerning blogging
2006-03-25 - spring time and casual career update
2006-03-18 - adventure?
2006-03-15 - the old me returns
2006-03-15 - Out with the old in with new...
2006-03-08 - i want so bably to write but...
2006-03-07 - social interaction is way too expensive
2006-03-03 - -
2006-02-28 - tomorrow there will be a funny entry, i swear. but today, i brood.
2006-02-23 - why i am having trouble writing today
2006-02-21 - so, how are things?
2006-02-17 - if i wasnt before, i had to then.
2006-02-11 - a valentine.
2006-02-09 - i really only like valentine's day when i am single.
2006-02-01 - intellectual
2006-01-30 - these are a few of my favorite things
2006-01-28 - story
2006-01-25 - i am twenty five years old.
2006-01-21 - even this sounds like bukowski
2006-01-20 - i'd throw a party but am afraid that no one would show up.
2006-01-19 - so sleepy, even still
2006-01-17 - golden globes
2006-01-12 - i never know what to title these types of entries.
2006-01-10 - my brother the patron
2006-01-05 - if you read this, darling, you should know its you.
2006-01-03 - if i only had an adequate device on which to record thoughts
2006-01-01 - new year
2005-12-31 - its almost unpatriotic to not write a new year's entry.
2005-12-30 - new thoughts
2005-12-28 - family
2005-12-27 - too much imagery?
2005-12-26 - cafe nitro
2005-12-25 - in the wake of a horrible evening
2005-12-24 - a very special christmas celebration
2005-12-22 - "home" again
2005-12-19 - sibling
2005-12-15 - dang it, i just dont have time to write something good right now
2005-12-08 - update
2005-11-28 - a dream i dream frequently
2005-11-26 - sex.
2005-11-22 - why, mr. coppola? why him?
2005-11-22 - so, what are you doing on thanksgiving?
2005-11-17 - pilgram
2005-11-16 - i sure hope that we cant trust our feelings.
2005-11-10 - an interesting occurance that i am not sure how to handle exactly.
2005-11-09 - the most horrible confession i have yet to write.
2005-11-08 - bar night. bar bright.
2005-11-06 - tribute to zak green.
2005-11-04 - inspite of my fear of relationships...
2005-11-03 - oblivion
2005-11-01 - well, actually this is just how i look.
2005-10-27 - DEAR GOD, THIS HURTS!
2005-10-22 - but seriously, though
2005-10-20 - its kind of like having to go to the bathroom really bad until you get into the bathroom and find that you no longer have to pee.
2005-10-18 - secrets
2005-10-15 - it always happens in the fall.
2005-10-11 - blankets
2005-10-06 - today i bought a pack of lucky strikes because thats what kerouac smoked.
2005-10-04 - i feel compulsed to write but...
2005-09-30 - whooo
2005-09-29 - my thoughts upon being recognized as employee of the year.
2005-09-28 - everybody and everything sucks.
2005-09-26 - aww, thanks zak.
2005-09-25 - HE IS
2005-09-24 - just got up and already a little testy
2005-09-22 - to have it all.
2005-09-20 - letters to spammers: part I
2005-09-17 - penguins, elephants and a poorly written day.
2005-09-17 - you might not want to read this.
2005-09-16 - emily: a year after
2005-09-13 - the weekend: a story by ryan connell
2005-09-10 - i know these entries are repetitive, its the only way i learn
2005-09-08 - smoke, typewriter
2005-09-06 - When Captain America Throws His Mighty Shield!
2005-09-04 - i used to be romantic until romance handed me the bill.
2005-09-03 - wish list.
2005-09-01 - the back burner becomes the priority once it catches fire.
2005-08-25 - do you ever write entries that suck but you post them anyways because you just dont have anything better?
2005-08-24 - oh, to be an eraser on the notebook of your heart.
2005-08-20 - show up, wait, go home.
2005-08-19 - sometimes i cant think of an appropriate title.
2005-08-17 - dear computer....
2005-08-14 - a love letter in the nick of time.
2005-08-11 - oh jeez this feels weird
2005-08-10 - sitting next to some mormon missionaries, our hero learns to supress a cough.
2005-08-09 - kerouac on the big screen.
2005-08-09 - it really is all about the benjamins
2005-08-06 - a rather long entry exposing numerous questions of an existential nature that pop up from time to time.
2005-08-04 - lost, the traveller feels to busy to check his map.
2005-07-29 - the street perfomer am i
2005-07-27 - i want twenty minutes of my life back!
2005-07-21 - first time at the game, the player becomes intrigued.
2005-07-19 - i let go of ropes.
2005-07-18 - decision? there are no decisions. only ideas of dreams of decisions.
2005-07-16 - living the vida normal
2005-07-16 - living the vida normal
2005-07-13 - i wish i could see something gross in person.
2005-07-12 - update would be a great name for one of those tv dating shows
2005-07-09 - i just tell you know that there is not much to read here
2005-07-06 - when i finish a book i must make a statement pertaining to how that book made me feel.
2005-07-02 - i am scared. i want ice cream
2005-06-29 - the world is a dead end and a no u-turn sign
2005-06-23 - this isnt an entry. this is a mockery of a parody of an entry.
2005-06-23 - i dont even know why i am typing such things
2005-06-22 - horrorscope
2005-06-21 - why the updates i update are lame
2005-06-17 - i practice writing suicide notes. i collect travel magazines.
2005-06-16 - another one of those list entries.
2005-06-15 - since i'm here
2005-06-13 - bye bye portland (again)
2005-06-09 - The Joys of PMSing*
2005-06-09 - i am actually doing this
2005-06-09 - i am actually doing this
2005-06-08 - mojo1915
2005-06-07 - portland???
2005-06-05 - guest star steven borders
2005-06-04 - la da da
2005-06-02 - living out kerouac's wildest imaginations
2005-06-02 - today: sad. reason: unkown
2005-06-01 - even my daydreams take a negative turn
2005-05-30 - distracted.
2005-05-30 - cryptic. so very cryptic
2005-05-27 - je taime old men
2005-05-24 - please be a guest clown. papo needs friends.
2005-05-24 - please be a guest clown. papo needs friends.
2005-05-23 - day off
2005-05-20 - think about it....
2005-05-19 - just in case you werent here for the introduction
2005-05-17 - ce titre ne signifie rien.
2005-05-16 - convictions? how'd these get here?
2005-05-13 - close call
2005-05-10 - hair art
2005-05-08 - God + me - she = confusion
2005-05-07 - here i am again on my own
2005-05-03 - two things
2005-05-03 - parking lots
2005-04-30 - good
2005-04-28 - let the sun shine
2005-04-20 - corn bread and broken hearts
2005-04-19 - over. over. over.
2005-04-19 - over. over. over.
2005-04-13 - pink, noise, nihilist
2005-04-11 - smurf
2005-04-09 - back together
2005-04-04 - eight hours ago...
2005-04-02 - a work in progress...
2005-03-26 - the timeless hipster
2005-03-25 - the passion of new life
2005-03-17 - zak
2005-03-15 - being busy
2005-03-07 - hmmmm, bacon
2005-03-05 - -
2005-03-02 - longing for me again
2005-02-26 - good friends are hard to find.
2005-02-25 - nonsense. sheer nonsense.
2005-02-17 - all this because emily wont talk
2005-02-16 - tax day
2005-02-14 - why i hate the fourteenth
2005-02-08 - taxing
2005-02-07 - after the blue
2005-02-05 - in other news.
2005-02-02 - ordinary
2005-02-01 - my last will and testament
2005-01-29 - this means something.
2005-01-28 - yesterday and today: a comparison
2005-01-27 - i am so depressed it hurts.
2005-01-25 - library
2005-01-23 - birthday
2005-01-21 - errrrr
2005-01-17 - emily's mom
2005-01-09 - update on emily
2005-01-10 - an unfinished bunch of thoughts
2005-01-08 - ooooh, my head
2005-01-04 - the grocer
2004-12-31 - homework number two
2004-12-29 - re-format and homework
2004-12-20 - the talk
2004-12-16 - at ze library with emily
2004-12-09 - arent those my cookies
2004-12-08 - ambitious
2004-12-05 - here is what i want
2004-12-01 - hiding
2004-11-25 - attention, can i get everyone's attention please.
2004-11-24 - moon reflections
2004-11-22 - monkeys are scary
2004-11-19 - today,
2004-11-16 - my monday
2004-11-14 - haiku (gesundheit!)
2004-11-14 - cold winter night
2004-11-13 - emily reads
2004-11-12 - tonight, the wheel is given to you.
2004-11-11 - the problem with youth pastors
2004-11-09 - almost kerouac
2004-11-07 - mind-reader
2004-11-04 - comic book romance
2004-11-03 - beer envy
2004-11-02 - election
2004-10-30 - blocked
2004-10-28 - vacation and crazy
2004-10-25 - books are for the stupid
2004-10-24 - safe bet
2004-10-23 - for the lack of a ring
2004-10-22 - cheating.
2004-10-21 - a parable about my romantic expectations
2004-10-18 - vanishing.
2004-10-14 - where i have been.
2004-10-05 - sick
1970-01-09 - fun facts about the debate
2004-09-30 - politics
2004-09-27 - a longed for life lesson
1970-01-13 - the new house
2004-09-23 - obsessed?
2004-09-22 - timing and cheap gifts
2004-09-20 - what needs to be done.
2004-09-19 - my wallet has a hangover
2004-09-18 - worries
2004-09-17 - i am feeling a little too happy.
2004-09-16 - i need to work on endings.
2004-09-15 - the ongoings of emily
2004-09-14 - emily
2004-09-13 - in search of a scene part one
2004-09-13 - i really love me, and you should love me too
2004-09-12 - ciggerettes and sidewalks.
2004-09-11 - emo? i dont know
2004-09-10 - shouldnt he just be worth it?
2004-09-08 - victim
2004-09-06 - business mind and pentagrams
2004-09-05 - six fun facts for today.
2004-09-05 - the new sunday top five
2004-09-04 - tomorrow
2004-09-03 - give me money, and i will give you words
2004-09-02 - i didnt intend for this to sound like a children's book, but it kind of ended up that way.
2004-08-30 - a rather small detail of my life.
2004-08-28 - i'm not asking for the world here.
2004-08-28 - dont stop me now, cause i'm havin' a good time
2004-08-26 - but this doesnt mean that i am...oh nevermind
2004-08-26 - work is for people with jobs
2004-08-25 - first day, new job
2004-08-24 - baby steps
2004-08-22 - another one of those God entries
2004-08-22 - (some sort of primal scream)
2004-08-20 - the best of
2004-08-19 - more proof that i am not gay.
2004-08-18 - a letter to an imaginary friend
2004-08-16 - the true drought of colorado springs
2004-08-15 - something to fill space
2004-08-14 - new place to hang out
2004-08-13 - act two
2004-08-11 - so needing a need, so desirous of desire
2004-08-09 - oh, sex is so bad
2004-08-09 - moms and blogs
2004-08-08 - intimacy
2004-08-07 - art
2004-08-07 - cover up
2004-08-07 - there is no point in my telling this
2004-08-05 - thursday morning ramble
2004-08-04 - aftermath
2004-08-04 - for david bazan
2004-08-03 - another one of "those" entries
2004-08-03 - another one of "those" entries
2004-08-03 - archives
2004-08-03 - archives
2004-08-02 - in the style of hal sirowitz
2004-07-31 - black stain and new things
2004-07-28 - happy wednesday
2004-07-27 - renter
2004-07-26 - monday
2004-07-24 - Jesus
2004-07-23 - freedom
2004-07-22 - rambling
2004-07-20 - evil genius. minus the genius
2004-07-19 - fear of love
2004-07-19 - roomate and i
2004-07-16 - liberal?
2004-07-14 - missing. hopefully missed.
2004-07-13 - doppleganger
2004-07-11 - the relationship
2004-07-10 - dull, alone, and insane
2004-07-09 - the budget
2004-07-08 - this doesnt make any sense
2004-07-06 - love for the ladies
2004-07-05 - repetition
2004-07-03 - restless
2004-06-30 - the phone
2004-06-29 - back in colorado
2004-06-27 - first kiss
2004-06-26 - not anti-social, just anti-party
2004-06-25 - bachelor party
2004-06-24 - home
2004-06-24 - home
2004-06-22 - the cats in the cradle and i am on my way home
2004-06-19 - vacation...or is it?????????
2004-06-18 - homecoming
2004-06-17 - what if.....
2004-06-15 - parental visit
2004-06-15 - parental visit
2004-06-13 - a pleasent ramble
2004-06-11 - relational manager
2004-06-11 - relational manager
2004-06-11 - relational manager
2004-06-08 - a non-entry of sorts
2004-06-08 - a non-entry of sorts
2004-06-07 - update
2004-06-07 - update
2004-06-07 - update
2004-06-04 - the dude, serendipity and harry potter
2004-06-03 - depression
2004-06-01 - the desert
2004-05-28 - sleepless and faithless
2004-05-27 - color journal
2004-05-26 - on being weird
2004-05-23 - lament of the comic relief
2004-05-22 - me and hsn
2004-05-20 - what am i saying?
2004-05-19 - this entry is so gay
2004-05-18 - waxing philosphical on ya' ass
2004-05-18 - does this make sense?
2004-05-15 - hey isnt that a mushroom?
2004-05-15 - lost the connection
2004-05-12 - coffeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
2004-05-11 - crappy poetry
2004-05-11 - stargirl
2004-05-10 - the date
2004-05-08 - pointless, useless, etc.....
2004-05-06 - confessions of a bad son.
2004-05-05 - TWO HISTORICAL EVENTS
2004-05-04 - updating the profile
2004-05-03 - fifth line of my twentythird entry.
2004-04-29 - here or there
2004-04-28 - another lonely walking in the night poem
2004-04-28 - paranoid
2004-04-26 - solipsism
2004-04-23 - ramble and rant
2004-04-22 - limerick week day two
2004-04-21 - limerics, limerics, limerics
2004-04-20 - the joy of paying taxes
2004-04-19 - the real mrs. robinson
2004-04-17 - the back door
2004-04-15 - ironic...dont you think?
2004-04-14 - my blue heaven
2004-04-13 - artsy vs. artist
2004-04-13 - my daily goal.
2004-04-12 - e-cards
2004-04-10 - snow
2004-04-09 - for dummies
2004-04-08 - rupert and i
2004-04-07 - one of those days
2004-04-06 - trip to oklahoma
2004-04-01 - where i am with God
2004-03-31 - daydreams
2004-03-30 - dont take this too seriously. please
2004-03-29 - i am writing this because i dont have anything to write about myself
2004-03-28 - the missing piece.
2004-03-26 - me and rupert and keving smith
2004-03-25 - for spittingame
2004-03-23 - tree hugger
2004-03-22 - hard on myself
2004-03-20 - shy
2004-03-17 - have to go to work
2004-03-15 - rambling, i am the rambling man
2004-03-14 - hot hopping saturday night
2004-03-13 - day after blue door.
2004-03-12 - stow away
2004-03-10 - pros and cons
2004-03-07 - what is it that you do?
2004-03-06 - lot a nothing
2004-03-04 - in colorado
2004-03-01 - finally...
2004-02-28 - big boobs with book deals.
2004-02-26 - sometimes....
2004-02-26 - numb about the passion
2004-02-25 - intellectual
2004-02-23 - who got served? you got served!
2004-02-20 - the importance of being redneck
2004-02-20 - bored
2004-02-19 - home again
2004-02-17 - look im positive
2004-02-17 - day before i move.
2004-02-14 - valentine's day
2004-02-13 - rant
2004-02-10 - valentines poem
2004-02-09 - game plan
2004-02-08 - a long entry to say that i am going to colorado
2004-02-07 - homesick
2004-02-05 - survivor
2004-02-04 - i dont think this makes sense
2004-02-03 - back from cool colorado
2004-01-27 - going to colorado
2004-01-26 - older
2004-01-24 - call me...
2004-01-22 - birthday eve
2004-01-21 - shut up! i'm on my period....kinda
2004-01-20 - the trip
2004-01-18 - birthday-ness
2004-01-17 - birthday warning
2004-01-15 - my "friend" is my friend is my enemy
2004-01-15 - i am just complaining
2004-01-14 - scary thoughts of future-ville
2004-01-12 - lazy and infected
2004-01-10 - my job search
2004-01-08 - they might be giants are my muse
2004-01-06 - chapter 2
2004-01-04 - steveism
2004-01-02 - this entry largely sucks. i blame it on my family being right behind me as i type.
2004-01-01 - new year's with clerks
2003-12-30 - the glitch in the matrix
2003-12-30 - the glitch in the matrix
2003-12-29 - a scrambled thought
2003-12-28 - heaven, i'm in heaven....
2003-12-25 - christmas
2003-12-24 - nice guys finish last
2003-12-23 - friend without the quotation marks
2003-12-21 - fleeting feelings of fancy
2003-12-21 - end of the ryan show
2003-12-19 - my life is complete
2003-12-17 - i fully endorse the saturn as car of the year.
2003-12-16 - dinner
2003-12-14 - not a movie
2003-12-11 - mix cds and romance block
2003-12-10 - my favorite things about me
2003-12-09 - i drove
2003-12-08 - fear
2003-12-07 - you can word anything if you verb it
2003-12-06 - the ministry
2003-12-04 - john cleese, woody allen and me
2003-12-04 - new christian rob part two
2003-12-03 - deductions from leg sweat
2003-12-02 - its a wonderful life
2003-11-30 - nyquil makes me stupid
2003-11-29 - cold
2003-11-27 - thanksgiving
2003-11-26 - collective of creatives
2003-11-25 - teusday
2003-11-24 - slow driving and painting
2003-11-24 - drive home
2003-11-22 - comic con
2003-11-21 - the cat in the hat
2003-11-20 - what i am thankful for
2003-11-20 - a rather pointless entry
2003-11-19 - new words
2003-11-18 - just another manic monday
2003-11-16 - i hate church
2003-11-15 - i wish i was in bed
2003-11-14 - my story
2003-11-13 - selfish
2003-11-13 - long day
2003-11-12 - TBN and talk radio
2003-11-11 - so enough about me
2003-11-11 - new christian rob
2003-11-09 - sigh upon sigh
2003-11-08 - i didnt have anything else to write today
2003-11-07 - the lady and the moon
2003-11-07 - the music gods
2003-11-06 - i am so cool
2003-11-05 - bored and lonely
2003-11-05 - pop-up ads
2003-11-04 - thoughts
2003-11-03 - yesterday
2003-11-01 - zoo people
2003-11-01 - decisions
2003-10-29 - waiting
2003-10-28 - tuesday
2003-10-28 - perhaps
2003-10-27 - poverty
2003-10-26 - thoughts on thoughtlessness
2003-10-25 - this weekend.
2003-10-25 - for the secret reader
2003-10-24 - my friend from tibet
2003-10-22 - drum roll please
2003-10-21 - colaradee
2003-10-20 - the simple history and mystery
2003-10-18 - another private life
2003-10-17 - mr. dylan sure knew what he was singing
2003-10-16 - new dillemma
2003-10-15 - casablanca ending
2003-10-14 - maybe a bit extreme
2003-10-13 - when loners attack
2003-10-12 - summer crush
2003-10-11 - ou-texas weekend
2003-10-10 - quentin tarentino is my hero
2003-10-09 - jerk
2003-10-07 - oh for a...
2003-10-05 - God and i
2003-10-03 - conflict
2003-10-02 - lazy day
2003-10-02 - a brief discourse on my evening
2003-10-01 - i heart dead end crappy jobs
2003-09-30 - keyboard drum
2003-09-29 - small groups
2003-09-27 - note lovin'
2003-09-26 - why i am keeping this diary
2003-09-26 - my last entry
2003-09-26 - fear
2003-09-24 - carlsbad
2003-09-23 - oh i am so vacationing!
2003-09-22 - your so money, and you dont even know it.
2003-09-20 - vacation
2003-09-19 - fruit and makeovers
2003-09-18 - headache
2003-09-17 - immature?
2003-09-16 - quizilla
2003-09-14 - mentally frustrated
2003-09-13 - head and shoulders
2003-09-13 - writer's block is over
2003-09-12 - two johns and a teresa
2003-09-11 - the lunch
2003-09-10 - payday and poetry
2003-09-09 - lunch
2003-09-07 - pity party
2003-09-06 - why i dont have a girlfriend
2003-09-05 - blocked
2003-09-03 - why i want a girlfriend
2003-09-02 - there is an underlying theme here.
2003-09-01 - thats why i feel so lonely.
2003-08-31 - ireland is calling me.
2003-08-30 - dallas
2003-08-29 - if you want to be great...
2003-08-27 - im so poetic
2003-08-27 - jksajfsajklafdsafsjklf
2003-08-26 - why i am depressed
2003-08-26 - so little to say
2003-08-24 - religious
2003-08-23 - new vision
2003-08-23 - lost cause
2003-08-22 - friggin waste of time
2003-08-20 - my three days as a gay man
2003-08-19 - i always thought i was crazy, now i have proof
2003-08-18 - lunch with tim
2003-08-16 - gotta go
2003-08-15 - okay, so its not the end
2003-08-15 - the end?
2003-08-14 - i thank chuck klosterman
2003-08-13 - there is a hole in my favorite jeans
2003-08-12 - the will of God
2003-08-11 - no title
2003-08-09 - sad and pathetic
2003-08-08 - whoo hoo
2003-08-07 - my old buddy God
2003-08-06 - help
2003-08-05 - about film and j-lo
2003-08-01 - my roomate situation
2003-07-31 - i am mr. tough guy
2003-07-30 - whiner without the h
2003-07-30 - another depressing entry
2003-07-29 - wholelottanothin'
2003-07-27 - stupid stupid stupid entry
2003-07-25 - not so interesting
2003-07-25 - my arguement
2003-07-23 - fah king bad day
2003-07-23 - non-entry
2003-07-22 - roomates
2003-07-21 - have you had a good day lately?
2003-07-20 - whheeee
2003-07-19 - curse
2003-07-18 - mall thoughts
2003-07-17 - romantic comedy
2003-07-16 - a brief explanation of country music
2003-07-15 - starry night and splendid conversations
2003-07-13 - my own personal psalm
2003-07-12 - why i am frustrated
2003-07-11 - sad pathetic little entry
2003-07-10 - 28 days later
2003-07-09 - drunken neighbors
2003-07-08 - the plan
2003-07-06 - creed
2003-07-05 - t.g.f.a
2003-07-04 - wakeboard the movie
2003-07-02 - poetry
2003-07-01 - visit
2003-06-29 - the down low
2003-06-29 - explanation
2003-06-29 - God
2003-06-27 - spiritual status
2003-06-24 - funeral
2003-06-21 - lots more poems
2003-06-20 - more poems
2003-06-18 - P.B.
2003-06-17 - washboard jackson
2003-06-15 - just a thought
2003-06-14 - i love my job
2003-06-13 - ben pasley is my own personal yoda
2003-06-11 - good day
2003-06-10 - my little song thing
2003-06-08 - i look out the window
2003-06-07 - la la lo la lo lee la la
2003-06-06 - depression
2003-06-04 - scary
2003-06-04 - work entries
2003-06-03 - jack and i
2003-06-01 - summer is here
2003-05-31 - random
2003-05-30 - imagination day
2003-05-28 - damn straight this is a christian coffee shop
2003-05-28 - nothing
2003-05-27 - rhetorical
2003-05-26 - day 4
2003-05-25 - day 3
2003-05-24 - day two
2003-05-22 - vacation day 1
2003-05-21 - prelude
2003-05-18 - maybe i should get a tattoo of truth on my arm
2003-05-16 - every entry should have at least three "matrix" references in it
2003-05-14 - ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
2003-05-13 - my view
2003-05-10 - homework clarified
2003-05-10 - homework
2003-05-09 - a pox on the spin docters
2003-05-08 - wow
2003-05-07 - mr. lazy bones
2003-05-04 - when i am a millionare
2003-05-02 - real?
2003-05-02 - i shouldnt write this, this will be bad for me.
2003-05-01 - a basic revelation, which i had forgotton
2003-04-30 - oh, to be somewhere
2003-04-29 - alright movie hot shots
2003-04-27 - thanks for praying
2003-04-26 - wonder why no one preaches on this verse
2003-04-25 - check
2003-04-24 - God said, i said
2003-04-23 - this is probably too depressing to read
2003-04-22 - so, maybe im not as artistic as i thought
2003-04-18 - the sonic of the slums (that sounds like a good title for a short story)
2003-04-17 - this is a really stupid entry
2003-04-16 - i dont know
2003-04-15 - silence is golden?
1997-11-18 - a chance to mention some of the attributes of some of my friends
1997-11-18 - the future
1997-11-17 - quiet thoughts
1997-11-15 - its always 97 here!
1997-11-14 - im tinking faster than i can type
2003-04-06 - too much to talk about
1997-11-09 - bandwagon
1997-11-08 - a tale of three christians
1997-11-07 - small groups
2003-03-31 - my day and my dog
1997-11-04 - entry marathon
1997-11-04 - happy-sad day
1997-11-02 - call me mike
1997-11-01 - thanks
1997-11-01 - thanks
1997-10-31 - book
1997-10-28 - i dont feel like complaining but i will anyway
1997-10-26 - my idea
1997-10-25 - war
1997-10-23 - the kingdom
1997-10-22 - vulnerable
1997-10-20 - observation
1997-10-20 - an attempt at honesty
1997-10-19 - let freedom ring
1997-10-17 - monday
1997-10-16 - gee, thanks diaryland
1997-10-14 - hah!
1997-10-12 - my troubles
1997-10-10 - just a note for all of my carlsbad homies
1997-10-06 - this entry is dedicated to cyndi, who considers this to be her own personal novel
1997-10-05 - x-treme dallas weather
i - oops i did it again
am - ryan and the art chick
so - can you dig?
incredibly - i am so trendy
bored! - the march
1997-09-23 - the poem mentioned in the last entry.
1997-09-20 - a poem of sorts about a poem
2003-02-11 - missing you
1997-09-16 - conversation
1997-09-15 - im back, and im bad
2003-1-28 - sabbatical
1997-09-03 - break
2003-01-22 - a summary
2003-01-21 - just put yourself in my shoes, first
2003-01-19 - a little clarity
2003-01-17 - birthday wish
2003-01-17 - la la la
2003-01-14 - new winds
2003-01-10 - so much to write about
2003-01-08 - i can think of lots of good titles but none that apply
1997-09-01 - i am really glad that i learned how to play the drums
1997-08-30 - two very true and bizarre stories from this weekend
1997-08-29 - i want a girl with a short skirt and a long jacket- cake
1997-08-29 - my new portrait
2003-01-01 - how i rang in the new year
2002-12-31 - new year
2002-12-29 - sorted thoughts and dirty nails
2002-12-25 - merry christmas
2002-12-18 - thoughts of love
2002-12-17 - sick
2002-12-15 - the psyco-analysis of ryan connell
2002-12-13 - the show
2002-12-10 - some details for michelle
2002-12-05 - and here is a report coming live form dallas
2002-12-04 - i would qoute some taking back sunday lyrics but i cant think of any off hand
2002-12-02 - the going away party
2002-11-29 - turkey thanksgiving day
2002-11-27 - what was i thinking...?
2002-11-22 - ryan gets a tune up
2002-11-17 - buddy road trip 2002
2002-11-15 - call me daddy
2002-11-14 - bored
2002-11-13 - sick
2002-11-11 - yes, yes indeed
2002-11-07 - a brief and personal theology of worship
2002-11-07 - ryan on politics, memeory loss and other important issues
2002-11-04 - last night
2002-11-02 - wow
2002-10-30 - the legend untold
2002-10-29 - sorted thoughts
2002-10-26 - another pointless entry
2002-10-25 - manners and customs of the bible
2002-10-21 - sometimes
2002-10-16 - notes notes and more notes
2002-10-14 - my weekend
2002-10-09 - (no use for a title here)
2002-10-04 - just a thought
2002-10-01 - wake up
2002-09-27 - 8 glorious goals
2002-09-25 - vision
2002-09-24 - brrrrrr....is there a draft in here?
2002-09-20 - ah, fall
2002-09-17 - thanks
2002-09-16 - it has taken over an hour for me to write this entry!
2002-09-13 - how to kill your neighbors dog
2002-09-09 - the wax flower becomes real
2002-09-07 - if i were a flower
2002-09-05 - i said I35 west!
2002-09-02 - rancho mira sol
2002-08-27 - the mystery list and the cbs mailbag
2002-08-26 - after the cold hard winter
2002-08-23 - new beginnings
2002-08-10 - God and us
2002-08-04 - preview
2002-08-02 - narcissim and marriage quilts
2002-07-29 - a collection of random thoughts
2002-07-27 - dumb drabble from a very tired person
2002-07-12 - fun
2002-07-10 - portland????????
2002-06-24 - reflections on comments recieved
2002-06-17 - the sins of the fathers.....
2002-06-15 - an interesting revelation
2002-06-09 - S.S.A.G rules!
2002-06-06 - man, im cool
2002-06-04 - my emotions: the most thrilling roller coaster yet.
2002-05-18 - padme amidala-connell has a nice ring to it
2002-05-16 - hmmmm....
2002-05-13 - qeustions i know the answers to
2002-05-10 - what bill murray and i have in common
2002-04-29 - so im still pretty confused
2002-04-26 - oh to be like thee........
2002-04-21 - good morning officer.......
2002-04-15 - all i do is break things
2002-04-13 - hmmm........
2002-04-12 - so whats your future plans
2002-04-10 - not much in this one
2002-04-09 - holiness vs legalism
2002-04-08 - i cant think of a title for this entry
2002-04-03 - the new apartment a.k.a. what have i done!?
2002-04-02 - spring
2002-03-29 - they call me bishop, bishop stiltskin
2002-03-22 - "the law of undulation"
2002-03-18 - punk rock show
2002-03-15 - humpty dumpty sat on a wall.........
2002-03-14 - New Mexico land of entrapment
2002-03-11 - do people even look at these titles?
2002-03-10 - leave me alone kendall!
2002-03-07 - i hate musicians
2002-03-05 - help
2002-03-04 - dang im poetic when im depressed
2002-02-27 - in response to some butt kicking diaries
2002-02-23 - selfishly seeking solutions to my situations
2002-02-22 - why i am called into inner city ministry
2002-02-21 - the lessons learned......
2002-02-20 - i dont wanna be a playa'
2002-02-19 - well, here it is...........
2002-02-17 - search me and know me............
2002-02-16 - how low will i go?...................
2002-02-15 - i just got asked out by a much older woman!
2002-02-14 - much thoughts on romance
2002-02-12 - that some nice tools you got there God
2002-02-10 - im so tired i could misspell "ti" i mean "it"
2002-02-08 - train sets and heart strings pt.II
2002-02-07 - train sets and heart strings
2002-02-06 - dangerous prayers
2002-02-05 - i thought hit me at 3:15 a.m
2002-02-04 - in response to the note i recieved
2002-02-04 - dialogue with the divine pt.II
2002-02-03 - well......thats embarrasing part II
2002-02-03 - well..........thats embarrasing
2002-02-02 - confessions
2002-02-01 - not that i like her....
2002-01-30 - reflections of freedom
2002-01-30 - dialogue with the divine
2002-01-28 - deep insatiable longings
2002-01-26 - i was going to write more here but i didnt
2002-01-25 - concerning last nights entry
2002-01-24 - the adventures of ryan the single
2002-01-22 - new pastor of evangelism??????
2002-01-21 - blah blah blah
2002-01-19 - day 1