so my church's "administrative assistant" (i am trying to be pc here) who is also my neighbor invited me to this bar-b-que of hers.
i went
and so did she, because of my invitation.
i used to have a crush on her
(she is the f-you jason's deli girl that was previously mentioned a few months back.see the entry entitled "i want a girl with a short skirt and a long jacket)
she has been coming by my work again recently.
we have devoloped a nice friendship.
i invited her to the bar-b-que
she came.
we talked.
we kept talking long after everyone else had gone.
long after the stars had come out in full array
a four hour long conversation
about stuff
about life
about God.
and i was honest.
finally honest.
able to articulate exactly what it was that i was going through with God.
simply because she was going through a similar struggle.
in the midst of our conversation, my good friend paul called.
our talk quickly joined the subject matter that was still fresh in the air.
and i was honest with him.
and i felt good
(though, i dont think that he felt the same way.)
i felt like i was becoming free
getting closer to God
by being honest with him
telling him that "we must start with the fact that i dont want to live for you"
and than working our way up from there.
the girl and i
talked and walked
and even snuck into an already closed insomnia and made us some drinks
(that i have to pay for today)
i didnt feel love towards her, or romantic in any way.
i just felt kinship
comrodorie (sp?)
community
and hope
1:33 p.m. - 2003-07-15
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