I am writing this on my brand new, totally used and beat up writing desk.
It doesn't feel official until I have actually written something on it, so here we are.
It's black and rather simple. It is filthy from the previous owner. Kind of sticky. As soon as I am done typing this all up, I am going to put a real nice clean on it.
I have placed it in front of my window. Right next to my mannequin and my desk that has been a makeshift shelf for my record player and my dad's old biblical commentaries.
As I type I am looking out my ten story window. I can't sit on the ledge like I used to, but that really only means that I can't see the alley anymore or the next door pool that no one ever uses. I don't know why no one does. It looks great and it's summer. Maybe this will be the year where I am bold enough to jump the fence and take a dip myself.
As for me, I am doing better. Less volatile. Everything has been so up and down with me these last few months. It's nice to just breathe and feel okay.
And I really am okay. No matter what. I haven't yet done as Rumi suggests and stripped naked and dove into the ocean of the cosmos, becoming truly one with all things. But I have dipped my toes in the water. And it feels nice.
But now, I am going to go buy some food and maybe watch something silly.
I feel more grateful to be alive today than I have in an incredibly long time.
Grateful for everything.
Grateful for you, dear reader. Whoever you may be.
4:55 p.m. - 2017-06-25
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