man, i am so tired.
so incredibly, amazingly, unbelievably tired.
drove all night from carlsbad, new mexico, to the house in colorado where i live.
then after a failed attempt at sleep went to work.
eight hours of bitchy coffee drinkers.
and home again.
if i was smart i would just go to bed.
i do have to be at work at seven to deal with more bitchy coffee drinkers.
but instead i am checking movie listings.
why?
because its been three days since i've seen emily.
i dont want it to be four.
there are so many thoughts that one can have while driving through the desert alone at three in the morning.
such a strong desire to share the experience.
what with the moon being so bright reflecting off of the snow.
no cars, or other form of civilzation of any kind for miles.
some really great song on the radio.
it caused day dreams.
i used to always want to be single.
fearing that becoming coupled off would limit my freedom, kill my adventures.
i was afraid of losing the "me" under the large suffocating blanket of "we".
but now i realize that my adventures would only be enhanced with someone to share them with.
that there would be a value placed on "me" that wasnt there before.
i dont know.
i am really tired.
tomorrow i will read this and look at all the mispelled words and misplaced commas and think
"i am still glad that i am not alone.
i am still so grateful that i have someone."
9:02 p.m. - 2004-11-24
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