my two greatest fears:
1.being ignored
2.being ordinary
my fears drive me.
my fears are me.
i want to be significant.
i want to change my world, i think the whole world would be too much to ask.
i want to be contagious.
i want to be avant garde.
i want to be inflammatory.
i want people to describe me as "unconventional"
i want a puppy.
i want to fuck shit up.
i want to not feel bad about cussing.
i want to talk.
i want to really talk
about things that matter
or even about things that dont matter
just as long as someone listens.
i want to shut out other peoples excitement
at least until i find excitement myself.
i want to be a brand new me
i really want a puppy
i want to see quizical expressions on faces when i describe what i did on any particular day
i want to give people a reason for not talking to me
i want to break things
i want to break ideals
break barriers
break coffee tables
break the record of pinball scores
break any rule i can find.
i want to stop wanting and do
but i know i never will
why?
because fear number three: fear of failure
fear number four: fear of the unkown
my fears drive me
my fears are me
10:29 p.m. - 2003-12-08
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