I have a crush on this girl that I work with, but have never asked her out because, well, we work together and that has never actually worked out for me.
But man, she is beautiful and hilarious. I would love to go out with her. We have discussed going to a pub trivia night or a midnight screening of Rocky Horror. I figured I would make my move then.
Tonight, she invited me out to see some Smiths cover band. I have to wake up at 5 am on Thursday mornings, but I thought this was my chance.
I get to the club and there she is...
making out with some other dude.
I am not going to make this a bigger deal than it is. I had no claim to her (no one ever has any claim on anyone). I never even had the nerve to ask her out. She might have chosen me if she had the chance. She might still.
Still, I feel like a loser tonight.
And even now I know that this is just my depression and blah blah blah. But it feels real.
I know I won't always feel like a loser, but tonight I feel like I will always feel like a loser.
I wish my brain were still under warranty. I would exchange this mother fucker in a heartbeat
12:10 a.m. - 2014-11-06
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