*sigh*
*siiiiiiiiggggghhhh*
my summer crush came in last night.
it seems that i have a lot of crushes.
five minute crushes mostly.
but a few that sustain.
she sustained.
back from school for the weekend she surprised us all yesterday evening.
my surprise
turned to ignited infatuation.
i was crushing
jonesing
sweating
uh..liking
this girl.
i am always amazed at how my tongue disapears around girls i like.
i hate my tongue.
my lack of assertiveness.
she hung out at my work almost everyday this last summer.
still i did nothing.
she came back for a few days
and i did my best
but
that
was
still
so
not
enough.
my best attempt at sweeping girls off their feet looks like a mix between a sad attempt at imitating lost puppy dogs and a brick wall.
i am a sad looking boy who stutters when he talks.
head down when he walks.
tenses up when touched.
and the thing about this girl
well, one of the many things about this girl
is that....
oh, nevermind.
this is turning into another little pity party.
another sad lament at the loss of a previously unexistent love life.
why am i already writing the ending to a book that has not yet begun?
she is still in town.
i will see her again before she leaves
i
could
get
my
chance
to make a move
sweep some feet
change from passive aggressive/romantic obsessive
to confident assertive/true romantic.
or
have another opportunity to write crappy poems about how i hate that i never take risks.
*sigh*
*siiiiigggggghhhhhh*
5:57 p.m. - 2003-10-12
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