feeling compulsed to write a new entry he sits.
contemplating numerous things
unsure of so many ideas
so many plans
afraid to dream
afraid to move
afraid to breath
he sits
he thinks about decisions
and what would happen if...
even seemingly insignificant things
like what if he went to mc donalds instead of chick-fil-a
what if he wasnt homeschooled
what if that girl he asked out in the seventh grade didnt laugh in his face
how would things be different?
would he be the same person?
would he like the new him better?
and now he thinks
"i am nothing but the result of decision i have made"
and he wonders
"the decisions i make today will ineveitably direct the course of who i become"
should he move to colorado?
should he stay where he is?
interrupted by the peopletalking behind him
hearing the clammering from his co-workers
he gets up and goes back to work.
1:27 a.m. - 2003-11-01
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