hello. my name is ryan.
i am twenty four years old.
a graduate of a generic bible college.
i have holes in my socks.
i have a pain in my tooth.
i have very poofy hair.
i grew up in new mexico.
became a man in dallas.
by, became a man, i mean that i had my first taste of alcohol and went to a strip club once.
i now live in colorado springs.
i work at starbucks.
i spend the rest of my time locked in my room dancing to gwen stefani.
i aint no holla bad girl.
many of you think that i am joking about dancing alone in my room.
i am not.
sure, it may not be to gwen stefani.
but it happens.
alot.
i watch alot of movies.
people tell me that i should
A. make movies
B. become a movie critic
just because i watch a lot of movies.
though, i must admit both jobs would be greatly rewarding.
i write poetry.
its not cool to write poetry these days.
unless you write the kind that is on that mcdonald's commercial for salads, or those anti-drug commercials where the kid sits at the bus stop and talks about his writer friend kept getting stoned all the time.
writers get stoned.
its what they do.
get over it, kid. get on the bus and become an ad consultant.
i dont get stoned.
i am not just saying that because my mom reads this.
i am saying it because i am afraid of getting stoned.
i dont like my mind being controlled by anything other than me, television, and attractive politicians.
i do write though.
so, i guess, not all writers get stoned.
but maybe i should just get on the bus too.
maybe my fear and hesitance to lead a life of reckless endangerment means that i am not destined to be a writer.
or, even worse, i am destined to be a writer in the style of deen koontz or john grisham.
i think about these things alot.
i think about what i will say to david letterman when i am on his show.
even when they never have poets, movie makers, or film critics on late night talk shows.
just pretty people.
i am not very pretty.
i just have a good personality.
maybe i should dream about being on NPR instead of david letterman.
maybe i will start.
i also think about how important it is to make a record of all my crazy little habits and my obsessive compulsive behaviour so that when i am famous people will want to start doing the same things.
i dont like to use the letter Z.
sometimes i feel zo bad for not using Z that i overuze it. itz really zad and perhapz a bit crazy.
my name is ryan.
i am about to go to the pizza hut buffet.
its my favorite of all buffets.
this is me.
this is my blog.
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