papotheclown's diary

papotheclown

2023-01-22 / The Precarity of Poverty

2022-12-29 / Tempted

2022-12-18 / The Guard Shack

2022-12-14 / Not Dead, Just Not Writing Much

2022-09-20 / Still Unbroken Up

2022-08-29 / Pray for Rain, Dig a Well

2022-08-16 / The Things That Can Only be Whispered in Darkness

2022-08-09 / Lot of feelings, lack of words

2022-07-23 / Samsara

2022-07-08 / Nihilism for Fun and Profit

2022-07-05 / Everything and Nothing All at Once

2022-06-21 / Summer Solstice

2022-06-15 / writing about not writing

2022-06-01 / Conflicted

2022-05-22 / She and Tulsa and Me

2022-04-15 / The Sun and the Moon

2022-04-07 / Forest Paradise

2022-04-02 / The Glorious future, The Tragic Past

2022-03-23 / On Time in Arizona

2022-03-16 / The end of the Van, the beginning of something else

2022-03-04 / 20 Years a Blog

2022-03-01 / She and I

2022-02-19 / Counting Matches with Rain Man

2022-02-12 / Her

2022-02-05 / Play Acting

2022-01-25 / Hello. Goodbye. Hello.

2022-01-22 / Birthday Birthday Blah Blah Blah

2022-01-20 / A dream

2022-01-06 / Another day wasted, another day of growth

2021-12-20 / In a Basement on an air mattress, freshly showered

2021-12-10 / A Pattern, A Purpose (so sorry all my entries have been so long lately)

2021-12-06 / Three Weeks a Boyfriend

2021-11-25 / Turkey Day

2021-11-20 / a rumination on sex and love

2021-11-09 / Where I've Been, Where I am

2021-10-17 / An attempt to cover some of the distance I have traveled.

2021-10-16 / Less of an update, more of a teaser of an update

2021-09-10 / Howl at the New Moon

2021-08-29 / Well, Well, look Who’s Inside Again (Went Out to Look For a Reason to Hide Again)

2021-08-04 / Like that Bruno Mars song. No, the other one.

2021-07-30 / New Stuff, who dis?

2021-07-13 / everyone in the whole world

2021-07-12 / This last week

2021-06-18 / Papo The Wizard

2021-06-08 / This Week

2021-05-30 / Here I stopped dangerous thoughts mid-stream and changed course

2021-05-21 / I got interviewed in a thing

2021-05-18 / The Defeated Loner

2021-05-11 / An Open Marriage to Solitude

2021-05-02 / Secret Admirer Unmasked

2021-04-15 / Abstract Expressionism

2021-03-29 / Soul Tornado (that sounds like a Christian book title, doesn't it?)

2021-03-13 / The Letters

2021-03-04 / The Last Time

2021-02-17 / The Lady of Louisiana (it's long, but hopefully readable)

2021-02-15 / Snow Week

2021-02-08 / The Walls of the Church

2021-02-02 / Days 3-6 (skipping Day 2 for now)

2021-01-22 / Day 1

2021-01-19 / 40

2021-01-02 / Milestone

2020-12-21 / The Pastor's Daughter

2020-12-08 / Love in the Time of Corona

2020-12-07 / A little whining about the stress of the future

2020-11-29 / Pins and Needles

2020-11-12 / Step by Step (ooh, baby) (That's a New Kids on the Block reference in case you are under 40)

2020-11-08 / a book of a thousand chapters starts with a single word

2020-10-16 / Bitter

2020-10-13 / Day to Day

2020-08-08 / 168

2020-08-06 / Feelings

2020-08-03 / Two Posts in as Many Days? I Must be on a Spree or Something.

2020-08-01 / Too Emotionally Soft for the Apocalypse

2020-07-03 / Finding my own voice in the wilderness

2020-05-11 / Looking Back

2020-05-08 / Pills, Pills, Pills

2020-05-03 / Anxiety is a real motherfucker

2020-04-15 / A Good Deal of Emotional Vomit

2020-04-11 / Word constipation

2020-03-27 / Sleepless Thoughts (and thoughts, and thoughts)

2020-03-24 / Pandemic

2020-03-03 / I am a Writer (look, I am writing right now)

2020-02-27 / Fingernails and Agoraphobia

2020-02-13 / Man is Condemned to his Freedom

2020-02-10 / Tell the Man in C-3PO Socks How You are Feeling.

2020-01-31 / How do Hermits pay the rent?

2020-01-24 / 39

2020-01-20 / You can feel the tension in the teeth.

2020-01-18 / Tropic of Cancer (Millennials Edition)

2020-01-13 / Got that 2020 vision (everyone is allowed to make that joke once this year)

2019-11-30 / Still? Still.

2019-10-05 / The Time Traveler.

2019-09-02 / updatey ramble

2019-08-09 / You Pray to Die (But god Doesn't Answer Prayer)

2019-07-16 / Full Moon

2019-06-19 / A Ramble.

2019-06-11 / 63 Days Since My Last Entry? Holy Fuck.

2019-04-08 / Hometown Tulsa

2019-03-21 / This Place Fits Like Your Old Favorite Pair of Jeans.

2019-03-19 / 9 Days

2019-03-05 / I am feeling so many things but just want to sleep

2019-02-19 / Waiting

2019-02-08 / Still in the Shit

2019-01-30 / It's Going to be Okay.

2019-01-24 / This Post Has All the Trigger Warnings (Seriously Though, Be Careful)

2019-01-18 / I hate feeling like this.

2018-12-12 / I am so lost right now.

2018-11-29 / brain full of static.

2018-11-16 / I don't know. I don't know.

2018-11-14 / An attempt to write.

2018-11-08 / Texas

2018-10-24 / A Car, Some Poverty, A Lady

2018-10-11 / Feeling good (in the hood)

2018-10-09 / The Weariness of the Road

2018-09-28 / Hungry in NYC

2018-09-24 / Sick

2018-09-20 / Back in Philly

2018-09-17 / Still in Florida

2018-09-12 / I guess we will walk then.

2018-09-03 / High in Iowa

2018-08-30 / Hello, Bri

2018-08-23 / Denver

2018-07-20 / Miss Philadelphia

2018-07-17 / -

2018-07-13 / Maryland Emptiness

2018-07-10 / This Entry Says Nothing of Importance

2018-07-08 / Redding, Portland, Philly, Richmond

2018-06-21 / Silence

2018-05-16 / The Changing Landscape of the Highway

2018-04-22 / Shifting Sand

2018-04-01 / At The End of Myself

2018-03-10 / Grateful, Exhausted, Lost

2018-03-08 / Orange County

2018-02-25 / The first two weeks

2018-02-11 / Still in Denver, but the trip has begun

2018-01-28 / Growth

2018-01-15 / Everything You Feel is Important

2018-01-13 / A Not So Brief Attempt at Brevity

2018-01-10 / Don't Bother Reading My Last Post. It Was Just a Bunch of Whining.

2018-01-09 / Fuck me in the fucking face

2018-01-04 / Breaking Free

2018-01-03 / Alone.

2017-12-31 / Moving Out

2017-12-26 / A Pretty Good Christmas

2017-12-22 / Getting Ready

2017-12-18 / My Monday Night

2017-12-15 / What the Fuck Am I Thinking?

2017-12-08 / Stepping Out

2017-12-05 / Hospital

2017-12-01 / Elsewhere

2017-11-28 / The match lit in the darkness.

2017-11-23 / An Untitled Poem: First Draft

2017-11-22 / It's Not Okay, but I am Okay

2017-11-21 / Pent Up

2017-11-11 / Fuck.

2017-11-05 / Stress

2017-10-25 / Alysson Writes

2017-10-23 / Trinity: Dallas, Day 4

2017-10-22 / Dallas: Day 3

2017-10-21 / Dallas: Day 2

2017-10-19 / Dallas

2017-10-11 / 31 days

2017-09-09 / Full Clean Lungs

2017-09-06 / Jagged Little Pill

2017-09-05 / A very over-extended metaphor

2017-08-29 / Mystery Mail

2017-08-26 / I Really Liked This One (But It Always Ends up the Same)

2017-08-25 / Is there a difference between giving up and surrender?

2017-08-21 / To the Mountains!

2017-08-10 / At the Bottom of the Sea

2017-07-28 / Hey, thanks everyone

2017-07-26 / Even at Rock Bottom, One Can Still See the Stars

2017-07-24 / The New Normal

2017-07-04 / Mountaintop

2017-06-28 / Honor the Sacred

2017-06-26 / An odd sort of reflection

2017-06-25 / New Writing Desk.

2017-06-16 / I am finally starting to understand the things I have long proclaimed

2017-06-11 / Sorry. It's another suicide post.

2017-05-27 / Opening my eyes, stretching my arms

2017-05-21 / Hello, Old Friend.

2017-05-19 / Puzzle piece

2017-05-17 / Jaime

2017-04-25 / A Prophet is Not Recognized in His Own Town

2017-04-16 / A Letter to my Future Wife

2017-04-09 / A Metaphor for Sadness

2017-04-04 / The Social Wallflower

2017-04-02 / Kind of a Weird Day

2017-03-29 / row, row, row your boat

2017-03-18 / Feeling Good.

2017-03-14 / Hard to say Np

2017-03-07 / Stuff.

2017-03-01 / Feeling down

2017-02-24 / I still think The Secret is bullshit, but...

2017-02-12 / A long rough draft of the memoir. Seriously, it's super long.

2017-02-11 / I am a bit blown away

2017-02-05 / What happened in Vegas did not stay there.

2017-01-28 / How Papo Got His Groove Back

2017-01-23 / Four More Years

2017-01-22 / Resemblance

2017-01-19 / I am feeling...

2017-01-14 / Not much to say.

2017-01-08 / I am so tired of all this.

2017-01-04 / Bari

2016-12-29 / Resolution

2016-12-29 / That Ended Quick.

2016-12-28 / Allyson

2016-12-26 / Bodhisattva

2016-12-23 / The Freak Out

2016-12-18 / Parents

2016-12-16 / I graduated

2016-12-15 / First draft of a rambly poem

2016-12-11 / A gathering of whiny complaints and grammatical errors that I am not going to bother to fix

2016-12-06 / The Cock Project

2016-11-30 / Reflection

2016-11-29 / Today

2016-11-27 / Here I am, talking about cars and sex. Just like some regular dude.

2016-11-24 / Just a Full-Bellied Ramble

2016-11-21 / I hate my brain sometimes

2016-11-18 / Love

2016-11-15 / My People.

2016-11-12 / Blessed are the Peacemakers

2016-11-06 / Sometimes Writing Doesn't Make You Feel Better.

2016-11-01 / I can't think of a clever title.

2016-10-24 / The Sufferers

2016-10-17 / My thoughts today.

2016-10-13 / It's a start.

2016-10-08 / So done.

2016-10-04 / Casual Sex

2016-09-25 / Better-ish

2016-09-23 / How Does Your Garden Grow?

2016-09-10 / Breakthrough

2016-09-07 / Thus Quoth Linkin Park: "I am one step closer to the edge..."

2016-09-06 / Fuck

2016-08-30 / Attractive

2016-08-28 / Cercle de la Mort

2016-08-25 / Truth (A Poem)

2016-08-24 / I honestly don't know if I am making sense

2016-08-20 / I think I give up

2016-08-18 / Addendum

2016-08-18 / Me in Real Life

2016-08-09 / A Pun about being a "Fun Guy" would be appropriate

2016-08-07 / Preparing

2016-08-02 / Mixed metaphors, crossed wires

2016-07-31 / Pretty damn drunk

2016-07-30 / Buddha and Daniel Johnston

2016-07-29 / Dear Emily

2016-07-23 / Dear, future wife...

2016-07-21 / I just don't know

2016-07-13 / Bookish

2016-07-12 / bleh

2016-06-24 / Stewardship

2016-06-19 / Didn't Even Have to Use My AK

2016-06-18 / Abundant

2016-06-14 / This is a ramble.

2016-06-13 / Dark Spot

2016-05-30 / Best Movies to Watch When You are Lonely

2016-05-26 / My Mother Opens Up

2016-05-11 / Now to sleep for days.

2016-05-03 / Now I Can Finally Shut Up About it

2016-04-29 / Jesus. Fuck. I am tired.

2016-04-25 / sleepy

2016-04-20 / I write a little, I flirt a little, I eat a lot of junk food.

2016-04-17 / Under Pressure

2016-04-11 / Admitting it to Myself

2016-04-07 / Brain Date

2016-04-06 / An elongated sigh before returning to work

2016-03-31 / Day by Day

2016-03-29 / Grandma Hope Chest

2016-03-28 / How it soothes the anguished heart

2016-03-26 / Depressed

2016-03-19 / Prime of Life

2016-03-15 / Dreams

2016-03-09 / My Ridiculous Obsession with Love

2016-03-09 / Have I scared her off? Have I been too distant?

2016-03-07 / I procrastinate my writing by writing

2016-02-25 / Got it bad

2016-02-23 / Catching it early

2016-02-17 / Erica

2016-02-05 / Buddha-ish

2016-01-27 / So I Eat Hot Pockets Sometimes. What Are You Going to do About It?

2016-01-21 / Yes, I recognize that I am being emotional and irrational. Deal with it.

2016-01-20 / School

2016-01-11 / A Prayer

2016-01-08 / Don and Carissa

2016-01-06 / Weed and Ellington

2016-01-03 / The Erotic Adventures of Zhaungzhi

2015-12-22 / Ugh, dating.

2015-12-06 / Alone

2015-11-28 / The Longest Week of the Year

2015-11-15 / But Still Here You Are

2015-11-02 / I was going to write an update, but decided at the last minute not to

2015-10-30 / Literally just a ramble of thoughts with no particular theme or direction

2015-10-21 / drinkily drunk on drunk inducing drinks

2015-10-15 / Confession

2015-10-10 / sex sure is complicated. At least for me.

2015-10-07 / -

2015-10-05 / Why I Will Probably Write on Here More

2015-10-01 / Parenthood

2015-09-28 / Little stabby feelings in my stomach

2015-09-23 / The Ghost of Emily

2015-09-18 / Maybe we are all just selfish assholes

2015-08-23 / Lonely

2015-08-19 / New Jobs

2015-08-09 / Lessons Unlearned

2015-07-30 / Job Stuff

2015-07-25 / Two

2015-07-21 / -

2015-07-14 / Why I am a church historian

2015-05-07 / Now

2015-04-27 / Everything Has Changed (and by everything I mean one thing)

2015-04-22 / Did I mention I am naked? Because I am.

2015-02-20 / Catch up

2015-01-15 / Anniversary

2015-01-14 / La Vie Est Belle

2015-01-05 / Newness

2014-12-31 / New Year

2014-12-20 / A Better Word

2014-12-18 / Another pledge to change

2014-12-15 / Fuck.

2014-12-12 / There is an I in Diaryland, but it's the U that matters

2014-12-10 / Not much of anything

2014-12-07 / A brief distraction

2014-12-05 / A Conversation with a Little Old Lady

2014-11-23 / the Journey

2014-11-23 / I hope this lasts.

2014-11-18 / Tired.

2014-11-11 / Jazz

2014-11-07 / Lonely

2014-11-06 / I am a loser, baby.

2014-11-03 / Awake in My Tiny Cage

2014-10-27 / God.

2014-10-17 / I remember me.

2014-10-13 / The Paper

2014-10-12 / A Post About Not Doing Anything

2014-10-02 / Lonely

2014-09-29 / Vulnerability

2014-09-20 / Late Night Rant

2014-09-18 / I am alive now.

2014-09-10 / Narrator

2014-09-07 / Revelations.

2014-09-05 / -

2014-09-01 / All Jazz, No Rock

2014-08-30 / Shame.

2014-08-23 / My biology keeps me trying, but my soul is about to break.

2014-08-22 / School Days.

2014-08-17 / Top Three Plus Seven.

2014-08-13 / -

2014-08-12 / sleeping pill

2014-08-06 / Someone to talk to.

2014-08-05 / Faith Without Works

2014-08-05 / The Date.

2014-08-03 / Trying.

2014-07-31 / Good

2014-07-27 / Hedonism

2014-07-23 / Father of Mine

2014-07-17 / All About My Mother

2014-07-14 / Homework

2014-07-11 / And I'm back to being sad...

2014-07-10 / Facebook is the devil

2014-07-07 / Awaken Compassion

2014-07-02 / Radical Acceptance

2014-06-22 / Foolish.

2014-06-21 / Affirmation

2014-06-19 / Keep saying it until you believe it

2014-06-17 / I go alone

2014-06-12 / Dear God, or the universe, or whatever.

2014-06-08 / The Trail Out of the Woods.

2014-06-06 / Survivor

2014-06-05 / Nearing the End

2014-06-04 / Darkest

2014-06-02 / Superflous

2014-05-30 / Therapy

2014-05-25 / Nina

2014-04-23 / The Burning Behind the Eyes

2014-04-10 / Someone to Talk to

2014-04-09 / Truly.

2014-03-03 / I'm probably not as crazy as I think

2014-02-26 / juice fast

2014-02-20 / The Future.

2014-02-01 / After My Walk

2014-01-25 / A short entry

2014-01-12 / The End of Alayna

2013-12-29 / The Rant Before Sleep; The Dream I Keep Having

2013-12-18 / Lonely

2013-12-10 / Got My Eye on the Finish Line

2013-12-09 / Fuck you, God

2013-12-04 / Three months summed up in a few paragraphs.

2013-08-08 / Preacher.

2013-08-06 / Becoming Mr. Right.

2013-07-31 / hermit

2013-07-30 / How I spent my summer vacation (from diaryland)

2013-04-10 / ...but poverty and toothache

2013-04-03 / It's time. The time is almost over.

2013-03-29 / Kerouac

2013-03-13 / Do Not Trust Yourself.

2013-03-12 / Not Insightful

2013-03-07 / In the Spirit of Needless Updates.

2013-03-04 / Life Skills

2013-02-27 / Define "relationship"?

2013-02-10 / -

2013-01-29 / Broken

2013-01-27 / Seven Days

2013-01-18 / Like a Pre-Burning Bush Moses

2013-01-16 / Alayna

2013-01-14 / Lazy Bones

2013-01-10 / On Sorrow

2013-01-06 / A Reminder to Myself

2013-01-02 / Back to College

2013-01-01 / New Year.

2012-12-31 / She said...

2012-12-28 / I should have never asked.

2012-12-24 / Hope

2012-12-24 / I can see the end

2012-12-23 / Suicide.

2012-12-20 / poverty

2012-12-16 / Pain

2012-12-12 / Sleepy Shish Kabob

2012-12-05 / I Found Her Blog

2012-12-02 / That's What She Said

2012-11-30 / Today

2012-11-29 / So Tired.

2012-11-27 / The Entry Where Our Hero Writes to Calm Himself Down

2012-11-27 / More on Alayna

2012-11-25 / Alayna

2012-11-20 / Sex

2012-11-18 / Dear Future Wife...

2012-11-17 / -

2012-11-12 / Jupiter

2012-11-11 / Wolves Crouched at the Door

2012-11-11 / About Last Night.

2012-11-09 / Check Me Out!

2012-11-09 / Genesis

2012-11-08 / There's Not Really a Title for This One.

2012-11-07 / Fast: Day 1

2012-11-05 / Time for Action

2012-11-03 / Why I Started Learning French

2012-11-03 / My List of Ten

2012-11-02 / Insomnia Thoughts.

2012-10-30 / Let's Get to Work.

2012-10-30 / Wedding Dream

2012-10-26 / High Pain Day

2012-10-26 / An Incomplete List of Things I am Grateful For.

2012-10-25 / Exciting Business Opportunities.

2012-10-25 / Support and cheesecake.

2012-10-23 / Only 45 to go!

2012-10-23 / Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps.

2012-10-21 / How to Have a Nervous Breakdown

2012-10-05 / Vision Board

2012-09-27 / Confession

2012-08-26 / Lonely

2012-08-13 / I write, but not type.

2012-06-08 / The Complete History of Sex, Part One. NSFW

2012-02-07 / Unanswered Prayers.

2012-01-04 / Maybe I can do this.

2012-01-01 / The Spirit is willing...

2011-12-21 / Closer

2011-11-27 / It's time to change some things.

2011-11-19 / idea for an art piece

2011-11-14 / I wish this was Tom Riddle's diary.

2011-10-29 / Happiness

2011-10-20 / Star Wars=Beat

2011-10-16 / Such a perfect moment that it had to be captured in some way.

2011-09-06 / Fully known, fully loved

2011-08-30 / Over and over again.

2011-08-25 / Emily

2011-08-25 / Mostly about my whirlwind.

2011-08-22 / I am writing my novel as I read it.

2011-08-22 / We'll see if I actually keep writing on this

2009-09-23 / A limerick from a husband to a wife

2009-09-22 / For Cynthia

2009-08-18 / a pondering of personality

2009-06-20 / digital footprints in a metaphorical sand

2009-04-27 / a simple statement of facts as they pop into my head.

2009-04-18 / a return to self-loathing causes the return of the blog.

2009-04-18 / Greetings

2009-01-20 / to ensure that my diary doesn't die

2008-04-14 / I strike out against the strike that struck out

2008-04-11 / Why I am awake.

2008-03-21 / i am desperate for your limericks

2008-03-19 / limerick week continues

2008-03-17 / send me your limericks!

2008-03-13 / limerick week 2008

2008-02-24 / i depress myself everytime i write. i should stop doing that.

2008-02-09 / wishful thinking

2008-02-05 / dead ends on all sides

2008-01-31 / when i can't sleep i take my brain for walks

2008-01-25 / 27

2008-01-19 / anniversary

2008-01-17 / the first thought of the morning

2008-01-14 / if my picture were in the dictionary it might be next to \"fatalistic\"

2008-01-11 / old ryan: resurrection

2007-12-11 / Fear not...

2007-09-15 / update

2007-07-27 / living in the gutter is only fun in dreams

2007-07-16 / science and magic

2007-07-02 / bringing down the house

2007-06-27 / seriously though

2007-06-24 / so, the truth is

2007-06-18 / normal

2007-06-14 / a synopsis perhaps?

2007-05-17 / -

2007-05-17 / reconnecting

2007-04-29 / at least i tried to write something.

2007-04-27 / when on one really believes you

2007-04-22 / my 2:26 of fame

2007-04-09 / waiting

2007-04-08 / a chronicle

2007-04-07 / a very disjointed and probably unentertaining story.

2007-04-04 / the thirteen hour nap and other thoughts

2007-03-28 / goodbye, old friends

2007-03-27 / life is awesome.

2007-03-23 / last day of limericks

2007-03-22 / -

2007-03-21 / limerick week: day five

2007-03-20 / worries and woes

2007-03-20 / -

2007-03-19 / limerick week: day three

2007-03-18 / limerick week: day two

2007-03-17 / limerick week: day one

2007-03-16 / cover poem week: day four

2007-03-15 / cover poem week: day three

2007-03-14 / cover poem week: day two

2007-03-13 / cover poem week: day one

2007-03-09 / some very important updates.

2007-03-06 / carlsbad, nm.

2007-03-02 / the revolution begins

2007-02-26 / a goal set in the heart like a dagger.

2007-02-25 / bright reds, ash greys

2007-02-23 / good day.

2007-02-22 / martin vs. stallone

2007-02-21 / hello...

2007-02-20 / ms. coleman, with her minions of germs, has won yet again

2007-02-18 / -

2007-02-14 / carolyn

2007-02-07 / okay, paul

2007-02-01 / just a quick note

2007-01-30 / is there a meeting for this?

2007-01-24 / -

2007-01-22 / birthday eve

2007-01-20 / all my time is free

2007-01-19 / for amy

2007-01-18 / ashley and i

2007-01-15 / hello, i am mr. lame from lamerton. i

2007-01-13 / leave

2007-01-11 / say my name, say my name

2007-01-07 / i wonder if there is a pill to take to cure emo style entries

2007-01-04 / soon...

2006-12-30 / i am free as a bird...

2006-12-29 / i should type faster, i am becoming sober

2006-12-24 / carlsbad christmas

2006-12-22 / i always feel like this during winter.

2006-12-19 / -

2006-12-12 / \"hit you one more time?\" yeah, i'll hit you.

2006-12-08 / just more wishing, never any doing.

2006-12-04 / if i felt i was worty...

2006-11-30 / living the life of luxury

2006-11-29 / a day without an attention span

2006-11-23 / haiku to you

2006-11-21 / haiku: day two

2006-11-20 / haiku (gesundheit) week begins!

2006-11-18 / just talking.

2006-11-14 / i am still awake.

2006-11-11 / an entry for my brother who seemed confused when we talked on the phone earlier

2006-11-08 / whats the frequency kenneth?

2006-10-28 / my first and last entry about her

2006-10-24 / somewhat inexpensive drinks on me!

2006-10-05 / announcement

2006-10-02 / i miss having friends

2006-09-17 / its a movie.

2006-09-13 / no time to time the time i have

2006-08-25 / i dont know what to title this.

2006-08-18 / so, okay, its been a while.

2006-07-12 / there i went

2006-07-07 / here i go.

2006-06-26 / pilgrimage

2006-06-23 / bohemia

2006-06-16 / the midnight disease (not yet a complete thought interuppted by a phone call i had to take.)

2006-06-06 / Miranda Velum. 22 oz. Coors Light, Extra complimentary bread,Spaghetti w/meatballs

2006-05-27 / just had to get it off my chest

2006-05-24 / now taking applications

2006-05-22 / oh, how i love them so.

2006-05-16 / if i spoke spanish this would be funny

2006-05-12 / to do

2006-05-10 / blip

2006-05-02 / our hero stops for a moment to dream

2006-05-01 / end of limerick week

2006-04-28 / hooray for limericks

2006-04-26 / limerick week continues (for about seven days total)

2006-04-25 / limerick week!

2006-04-24 / i just need a cigarette, damn it!

2006-04-20 / just in case you dont know how much i love myself, i am telling you now.

2006-04-20 / listless, restless, crazy

2006-04-10 / long distance relationship

2006-04-06 / wait for the applause, gather your tips

2006-03-31 / fake it till you make it

2006-03-30 / concerning blogging

2006-03-25 / spring time and casual career update

2006-03-18 / adventure?

2006-03-15 / the old me returns

2006-03-15 / Out with the old in with new...

2006-03-08 / i want so bably to write but...

2006-03-07 / social interaction is way too expensive

2006-03-03 / -

2006-02-28 / tomorrow there will be a funny entry, i swear. but today, i brood.

2006-02-23 / why i am having trouble writing today

2006-02-21 / so, how are things?

2006-02-17 / if i wasnt before, i had to then.

2006-02-11 / a valentine.

2006-02-09 / i really only like valentine's day when i am single.

2006-02-01 / intellectual

2006-01-30 / these are a few of my favorite things

2006-01-28 / story

2006-01-25 / i am twenty five years old.

2006-01-21 / even this sounds like bukowski

2006-01-20 / i'd throw a party but am afraid that no one would show up.

2006-01-19 / so sleepy, even still

2006-01-17 / golden globes

2006-01-12 / i never know what to title these types of entries.

2006-01-10 / my brother the patron

2006-01-05 / if you read this, darling, you should know its you.

2006-01-03 / if i only had an adequate device on which to record thoughts

2006-01-01 / new year

2005-12-31 / its almost unpatriotic to not write a new year's entry.

2005-12-30 / new thoughts

2005-12-28 / family

2005-12-27 / too much imagery?

2005-12-26 / cafe nitro

2005-12-25 / in the wake of a horrible evening

2005-12-24 / a very special christmas celebration

2005-12-22 / \"home\" again

2005-12-19 / sibling

2005-12-15 / dang it, i just dont have time to write something good right now

2005-12-08 / update

2005-11-28 / a dream i dream frequently

2005-11-26 / sex.

2005-11-22 / why, mr. coppola? why him?

2005-11-22 / so, what are you doing on thanksgiving?

2005-11-17 / pilgram

2005-11-16 / i sure hope that we cant trust our feelings.

2005-11-10 / an interesting occurance that i am not sure how to handle exactly.

2005-11-09 / the most horrible confession i have yet to write.

2005-11-08 / bar night. bar bright.

2005-11-06 / tribute to zak green.

2005-11-04 / inspite of my fear of relationships...

2005-11-03 / oblivion

2005-11-01 / well, actually this is just how i look.

2005-10-27 / DEAR GOD, THIS HURTS!

2005-10-22 / but seriously, though

2005-10-20 / its kind of like having to go to the bathroom really bad until you get into the bathroom and find that you no longer have to pee.

2005-10-18 / secrets

2005-10-15 / it always happens in the fall.

2005-10-11 / blankets

2005-10-06 / today i bought a pack of lucky strikes because thats what kerouac smoked.

2005-10-04 / i feel compulsed to write but...

2005-09-30 / whooo

2005-09-29 / my thoughts upon being recognized as employee of the year.

2005-09-28 / everybody and everything sucks.

2005-09-26 / aww, thanks zak.

2005-09-25 / HE IS

2005-09-24 / just got up and already a little testy

2005-09-22 / to have it all.

2005-09-20 / letters to spammers: part I

2005-09-17 / penguins, elephants and a poorly written day.

2005-09-17 / you might not want to read this.

2005-09-16 / emily: a year after

2005-09-13 / the weekend: a story by ryan connell

2005-09-10 / i know these entries are repetitive, its the only way i learn

2005-09-08 / smoke, typewriter

2005-09-06 / When Captain America Throws His Mighty Shield!

2005-09-04 / i used to be romantic until romance handed me the bill.

2005-09-03 / wish list.

2005-09-01 / the back burner becomes the priority once it catches fire.

2005-08-25 / do you ever write entries that suck but you post them anyways because you just dont have anything better?

2005-08-24 / oh, to be an eraser on the notebook of your heart.

2005-08-20 / show up, wait, go home.

2005-08-19 / sometimes i cant think of an appropriate title.

2005-08-17 / dear computer....

2005-08-14 / a love letter in the nick of time.

2005-08-11 / oh jeez this feels weird

2005-08-10 / sitting next to some mormon missionaries, our hero learns to supress a cough.

2005-08-09 / kerouac on the big screen.

2005-08-09 / it really is all about the benjamins

2005-08-06 / a rather long entry exposing numerous questions of an existential nature that pop up from time to time.

2005-08-04 / lost, the traveller feels to busy to check his map.

2005-07-29 / the street perfomer am i

2005-07-27 / i want twenty minutes of my life back!

2005-07-21 / first time at the game, the player becomes intrigued.

2005-07-19 / i let go of ropes.

2005-07-18 / decision? there are no decisions. only ideas of dreams of decisions.

2005-07-16 / living the vida normal

2005-07-13 / i wish i could see something gross in person.

2005-07-12 / update would be a great name for one of those tv dating shows

2005-07-09 / i just tell you know that there is not much to read here

2005-07-06 / when i finish a book i must make a statement pertaining to how that book made me feel.

2005-07-02 / i am scared. i want ice cream

2005-06-29 / the world is a dead end and a no u-turn sign

2005-06-23 / this isnt an entry. this is a mockery of a parody of an entry.

2005-06-23 / i dont even know why i am typing such things

2005-06-22 / horrorscope

2005-06-21 / why the updates i update are lame

2005-06-17 / i practice writing suicide notes. i collect travel magazines.

2005-06-16 / another one of those list entries.

2005-06-15 / since i'm here

2005-06-13 / bye bye portland (again)

2005-06-09 / The Joys of PMSing*

2005-06-09 / i am actually doing this

2005-06-08 / mojo1915

2005-06-07 / portland???

2005-06-05 / guest star steven borders

2005-06-04 / la da da

2005-06-02 / living out kerouac's wildest imaginations

2005-06-02 / today: sad. reason: unkown

2005-06-01 / even my daydreams take a negative turn

2005-05-30 / distracted.

2005-05-30 / cryptic. so very cryptic

2005-05-27 / je taime old men

2005-05-24 / please be a guest clown. papo needs friends.

2005-05-23 / day off

2005-05-20 / think about it....

2005-05-19 / just in case you werent here for the introduction

2005-05-17 / ce titre ne signifie rien.

2005-05-16 / convictions? how'd these get here?

2005-05-13 / close call

2005-05-10 / hair art

2005-05-08 / God + me - she = confusion

2005-05-07 / here i am again on my own

2005-05-03 / two things

2005-05-03 / parking lots

2005-04-30 / good

2005-04-28 / let the sun shine

2005-04-20 / corn bread and broken hearts

2005-04-19 / over. over. over.

2005-04-13 / pink, noise, nihilist

2005-04-11 / smurf

2005-04-09 / back together

2005-04-04 / eight hours ago...

2005-04-02 / a work in progress...

2005-03-26 / the timeless hipster

2005-03-25 / the passion of new life

2005-03-17 / zak

2005-03-15 / being busy

2005-03-07 / hmmmm, bacon

2005-03-05 / -

2005-03-02 / longing for me again

2005-02-26 / good friends are hard to find.

2005-02-25 / nonsense. sheer nonsense.

2005-02-17 / all this because emily wont talk

2005-02-16 / tax day

2005-02-14 / why i hate the fourteenth

2005-02-08 / taxing

2005-02-07 / after the blue

2005-02-05 / in other news.

2005-02-02 / ordinary

2005-02-01 / my last will and testament

2005-01-29 / this means something.

2005-01-28 / yesterday and today: a comparison

2005-01-27 / i am so depressed it hurts.

2005-01-25 / library

2005-01-23 / birthday

2005-01-21 / errrrr

2005-01-17 / emily's mom

2005-01-09 / update on emily

2005-01-10 / an unfinished bunch of thoughts

2005-01-08 / ooooh, my head

2005-01-04 / the grocer

2004-12-31 / homework number two

2004-12-29 / re-format and homework

2004-12-20 / the talk

2004-12-16 / at ze library with emily

2004-12-09 / arent those my cookies

2004-12-08 / ambitious

2004-12-05 / here is what i want

2004-12-01 / hiding

2004-11-25 / attention, can i get everyone's attention please.

2004-11-24 / moon reflections

2004-11-22 / monkeys are scary

2004-11-19 / today,

2004-11-16 / my monday

2004-11-14 / haiku (gesundheit!)

2004-11-14 / cold winter night

2004-11-13 / emily reads

2004-11-12 / tonight, the wheel is given to you.

2004-11-11 / the problem with youth pastors

2004-11-09 / almost kerouac

2004-11-07 / mind-reader

2004-11-04 / comic book romance

2004-11-03 / beer envy

2004-11-02 / election

2004-10-30 / blocked

2004-10-28 / vacation and crazy

2004-10-25 / books are for the stupid

2004-10-24 / safe bet

2004-10-23 / for the lack of a ring

2004-10-22 / cheating.

2004-10-21 / a parable about my romantic expectations

2004-10-18 / vanishing.

2004-10-14 / where i have been.

2004-10-05 / sick

1970-01-09 / fun facts about the debate

2004-09-30 / politics

2004-09-27 / a longed for life lesson

1970-01-13 / the new house

2004-09-23 / obsessed?

2004-09-22 / timing and cheap gifts

2004-09-20 / what needs to be done.

2004-09-19 / my wallet has a hangover

2004-09-18 / worries

2004-09-17 / i am feeling a little too happy.

2004-09-16 / i need to work on endings.

2004-09-15 / the ongoings of emily

2004-09-14 / emily

2004-09-13 / in search of a scene part one

2004-09-13 / i really love me, and you should love me too

2004-09-12 / ciggerettes and sidewalks.

2004-09-11 / emo? i dont know

2004-09-10 / shouldnt he just be worth it?

2004-09-08 / victim

2004-09-06 / business mind and pentagrams

2004-09-05 / six fun facts for today.

2004-09-05 / the new sunday top five

2004-09-04 / tomorrow

2004-09-03 / give me money, and i will give you words

2004-09-02 / i didnt intend for this to sound like a children's book, but it kind of ended up that way.

2004-08-30 / a rather small detail of my life.

2004-08-28 / i'm not asking for the world here.

2004-08-28 / dont stop me now, cause i'm havin' a good time

2004-08-26 / but this doesnt mean that i am...oh nevermind

2004-08-26 / work is for people with jobs

2004-08-25 / first day, new job

2004-08-24 / baby steps

2004-08-22 / another one of those God entries

2004-08-22 / (some sort of primal scream)

2004-08-20 / the best of

2004-08-19 / more proof that i am not gay.

2004-08-18 / a letter to an imaginary friend

2004-08-16 / the true drought of colorado springs

2004-08-15 / something to fill space

2004-08-14 / new place to hang out

2004-08-13 / act two

2004-08-11 / so needing a need, so desirous of desire

2004-08-09 / oh, sex is so bad

2004-08-09 / moms and blogs

2004-08-08 / intimacy

2004-08-07 / art

2004-08-07 / cover up

2004-08-07 / there is no point in my telling this

2004-08-05 / thursday morning ramble

2004-08-04 / aftermath

2004-08-04 / for david bazan

2004-08-03 / another one of \"those\" entries

2004-08-03 / archives

2004-08-02 / in the style of hal sirowitz

2004-07-31 / black stain and new things

2004-07-28 / happy wednesday

2004-07-27 / renter

2004-07-26 / monday

2004-07-24 / Jesus

2004-07-23 / freedom

2004-07-22 / rambling

2004-07-20 / evil genius. minus the genius

2004-07-19 / fear of love

2004-07-19 / roomate and i

2004-07-16 / liberal?

2004-07-14 / missing. hopefully missed.

2004-07-13 / doppleganger

2004-07-11 / the relationship

2004-07-10 / dull, alone, and insane

2004-07-09 / the budget

2004-07-08 / this doesnt make any sense

2004-07-06 / love for the ladies

2004-07-05 / repetition

2004-07-03 / restless

2004-06-30 / the phone

2004-06-29 / back in colorado

2004-06-27 / first kiss

2004-06-26 / not anti-social, just anti-party

2004-06-25 / bachelor party

2004-06-24 / home

2004-06-22 / the cats in the cradle and i am on my way home

2004-06-19 / vacation...or is it?????????

2004-06-18 / homecoming

2004-06-17 / what if.....

2004-06-15 / parental visit

2004-06-13 / a pleasent ramble

2004-06-11 / relational manager

2004-06-08 / a non-entry of sorts

2004-06-07 / update

2004-06-04 / the dude, serendipity and harry potter

2004-06-03 / depression

2004-06-01 / the desert

2004-05-28 / sleepless and faithless

2004-05-27 / color journal

2004-05-26 / on being weird

2004-05-23 / lament of the comic relief

2004-05-22 / me and hsn

2004-05-20 / what am i saying?

2004-05-19 / this entry is so gay

2004-05-18 / waxing philosphical on ya' ass

2004-05-18 / does this make sense?

2004-05-15 / hey isnt that a mushroom?

2004-05-15 / lost the connection

2004-05-12 / coffeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2004-05-11 / crappy poetry

2004-05-11 / stargirl

2004-05-10 / the date

2004-05-08 / pointless, useless, etc.....

2004-05-06 / confessions of a bad son.

2004-05-05 / TWO HISTORICAL EVENTS

2004-05-04 / updating the profile

2004-05-03 / fifth line of my twentythird entry.

2004-04-29 / here or there

2004-04-28 / another lonely walking in the night poem

2004-04-28 / paranoid

2004-04-26 / solipsism

2004-04-23 / ramble and rant

2004-04-22 / limerick week day two

2004-04-21 / limerics, limerics, limerics

2004-04-20 / the joy of paying taxes

2004-04-19 / the real mrs. robinson

2004-04-17 / the back door

2004-04-15 / ironic...dont you think?

2004-04-14 / my blue heaven

2004-04-13 / artsy vs. artist

2004-04-13 / my daily goal.

2004-04-12 / e-cards

2004-04-10 / snow

2004-04-09 / for dummies

2004-04-08 / rupert and i

2004-04-07 / one of those days

2004-04-06 / trip to oklahoma

2004-04-01 / where i am with God

2004-03-31 / daydreams

2004-03-30 / dont take this too seriously. please

2004-03-29 / i am writing this because i dont have anything to write about myself

2004-03-28 / the missing piece.

2004-03-26 / me and rupert and keving smith

2004-03-25 / for spittingame

2004-03-23 / tree hugger

2004-03-22 / hard on myself

2004-03-20 / shy

2004-03-17 / have to go to work

2004-03-15 / rambling, i am the rambling man

2004-03-14 / hot hopping saturday night

2004-03-13 / day after blue door.

2004-03-12 / stow away

2004-03-10 / pros and cons

2004-03-07 / what is it that you do?

2004-03-06 / lot a nothing

2004-03-04 / in colorado

2004-03-01 / finally...

2004-02-28 / big boobs with book deals.

2004-02-26 / sometimes....

2004-02-26 / numb about the passion

2004-02-25 / intellectual

2004-02-23 / who got served? you got served!

2004-02-20 / the importance of being redneck

2004-02-20 / bored

2004-02-19 / home again

2004-02-17 / look im positive

2004-02-17 / day before i move.

2004-02-14 / valentine's day

2004-02-13 / rant

2004-02-10 / valentines poem

2004-02-09 / game plan

2004-02-08 / a long entry to say that i am going to colorado

2004-02-07 / homesick

2004-02-05 / survivor

2004-02-04 / i dont think this makes sense

2004-02-03 / back from cool colorado

2004-01-27 / going to colorado

2004-01-26 / older

2004-01-24 / call me...

2004-01-22 / birthday eve

2004-01-21 / shut up! i'm on my period....kinda

2004-01-20 / the trip

2004-01-18 / birthday-ness

2004-01-17 / birthday warning

2004-01-15 / my \"friend\" is my friend is my enemy

2004-01-15 / i am just complaining

2004-01-14 / scary thoughts of future-ville

2004-01-12 / lazy and infected

2004-01-10 / my job search

2004-01-08 / they might be giants are my muse

2004-01-06 / chapter 2

2004-01-04 / steveism

2004-01-02 / this entry largely sucks. i blame it on my family being right behind me as i type.

2004-01-01 / new year's with clerks

2003-12-30 / the glitch in the matrix

2003-12-29 / a scrambled thought

2003-12-28 / heaven, i'm in heaven....

2003-12-25 / christmas

2003-12-24 / nice guys finish last

2003-12-23 / friend without the quotation marks

2003-12-21 / fleeting feelings of fancy

2003-12-21 / end of the ryan show

2003-12-19 / my life is complete

2003-12-17 / i fully endorse the saturn as car of the year.

2003-12-16 / dinner

2003-12-14 / not a movie

2003-12-11 / mix cds and romance block

2003-12-10 / my favorite things about me

2003-12-09 / i drove

2003-12-08 / fear

2003-12-07 / you can word anything if you verb it

2003-12-06 / the ministry

2003-12-04 / john cleese, woody allen and me

2003-12-04 / new christian rob part two

2003-12-03 / deductions from leg sweat

2003-12-02 / its a wonderful life

2003-11-30 / nyquil makes me stupid

2003-11-29 / cold

2003-11-27 / thanksgiving

2003-11-26 / collective of creatives

2003-11-25 / teusday

2003-11-24 / slow driving and painting

2003-11-24 / drive home

2003-11-22 / comic con

2003-11-21 / the cat in the hat

2003-11-20 / what i am thankful for

2003-11-20 / a rather pointless entry

2003-11-19 / new words

2003-11-18 / just another manic monday

2003-11-16 / i hate church

2003-11-15 / i wish i was in bed

2003-11-14 / my story

2003-11-13 / selfish

2003-11-13 / long day

2003-11-12 / TBN and talk radio

2003-11-11 / so enough about me

2003-11-11 / new christian rob

2003-11-09 / sigh upon sigh

2003-11-08 / i didnt have anything else to write today

2003-11-07 / the lady and the moon

2003-11-07 / the music gods

2003-11-06 / i am so cool

2003-11-05 / bored and lonely

2003-11-05 / pop-up ads

2003-11-04 / thoughts

2003-11-03 / yesterday

2003-11-01 / zoo people

2003-11-01 / decisions

2003-10-29 / waiting

2003-10-28 / tuesday

2003-10-28 / perhaps

2003-10-27 / poverty

2003-10-26 / thoughts on thoughtlessness

2003-10-25 / this weekend.

2003-10-25 / for the secret reader

2003-10-24 / my friend from tibet

2003-10-22 / drum roll please

2003-10-21 / colaradee

2003-10-20 / the simple history and mystery

2003-10-18 / another private life

2003-10-17 / mr. dylan sure knew what he was singing

2003-10-16 / new dillemma

2003-10-15 / casablanca ending

2003-10-14 / maybe a bit extreme

2003-10-13 / when loners attack

2003-10-12 / summer crush

2003-10-11 / ou-texas weekend

2003-10-10 / quentin tarentino is my hero

2003-10-09 / jerk

2003-10-07 / oh for a...

2003-10-05 / God and i

2003-10-03 / conflict

2003-10-02 / lazy day

2003-10-02 / a brief discourse on my evening

2003-10-01 / i heart dead end crappy jobs

2003-09-30 / keyboard drum

2003-09-29 / small groups

2003-09-27 / note lovin'

2003-09-26 / why i am keeping this diary

2003-09-26 / my last entry

2003-09-26 / fear

2003-09-24 / carlsbad

2003-09-23 / oh i am so vacationing!

2003-09-22 / your so money, and you dont even know it.

2003-09-20 / vacation

2003-09-19 / fruit and makeovers

2003-09-18 / headache

2003-09-17 / immature?

2003-09-16 / quizilla

2003-09-14 / mentally frustrated

2003-09-13 / head and shoulders

2003-09-13 / writer's block is over

2003-09-12 / two johns and a teresa

2003-09-11 / the lunch

2003-09-10 / payday and poetry

2003-09-09 / lunch

2003-09-07 / pity party

2003-09-06 / why i dont have a girlfriend

2003-09-05 / blocked

2003-09-03 / why i want a girlfriend

2003-09-02 / there is an underlying theme here.

2003-09-01 / thats why i feel so lonely.

2003-08-31 / ireland is calling me.

2003-08-30 / dallas

2003-08-29 / if you want to be great...

2003-08-27 / im so poetic

2003-08-27 / jksajfsajklafdsafsjklf

2003-08-26 / why i am depressed

2003-08-26 / so little to say

2003-08-24 / religious

2003-08-23 / new vision

2003-08-23 / lost cause

2003-08-22 / friggin waste of time

2003-08-20 / my three days as a gay man

2003-08-19 / i always thought i was crazy, now i have proof

2003-08-18 / lunch with tim

2003-08-16 / gotta go

2003-08-15 / okay, so its not the end

2003-08-15 / the end?

2003-08-14 / i thank chuck klosterman

2003-08-13 / there is a hole in my favorite jeans

2003-08-12 / the will of God

2003-08-11 / no title

2003-08-09 / sad and pathetic

2003-08-08 / whoo hoo

2003-08-07 / my old buddy God

2003-08-06 / help

2003-08-05 / about film and j-lo

2003-08-01 / my roomate situation

2003-07-31 / i am mr. tough guy

2003-07-30 / whiner without the h

2003-07-30 / another depressing entry

2003-07-29 / wholelottanothin'

2003-07-27 / stupid stupid stupid entry

2003-07-25 / not so interesting

2003-07-25 / my arguement

2003-07-23 / fah king bad day

2003-07-23 / non-entry

2003-07-22 / roomates

2003-07-21 / have you had a good day lately?

2003-07-20 / whheeee

2003-07-19 / curse

2003-07-18 / mall thoughts

2003-07-17 / romantic comedy

2003-07-16 / a brief explanation of country music

2003-07-15 / starry night and splendid conversations

2003-07-13 / my own personal psalm

2003-07-12 / why i am frustrated

2003-07-11 / sad pathetic little entry

2003-07-10 / 28 days later

2003-07-09 / drunken neighbors

2003-07-08 / the plan

2003-07-06 / creed

2003-07-05 / t.g.f.a

2003-07-04 / wakeboard the movie

2003-07-02 / poetry

2003-07-01 / visit

2003-06-29 / the down low

2003-06-29 / explanation

2003-06-29 / God

2003-06-27 / spiritual status

2003-06-24 / funeral

2003-06-21 / lots more poems

2003-06-20 / more poems

2003-06-18 / P.B.

2003-06-17 / washboard jackson

2003-06-15 / just a thought

2003-06-14 / i love my job

2003-06-13 / ben pasley is my own personal yoda

2003-06-11 / good day

2003-06-10 / my little song thing

2003-06-08 / i look out the window

2003-06-07 / la la lo la lo lee la la

2003-06-06 / depression

2003-06-04 / scary

2003-06-04 / work entries

2003-06-03 / jack and i

2003-06-01 / summer is here

2003-05-31 / random

2003-05-30 / imagination day

2003-05-28 / damn straight this is a christian coffee shop

2003-05-28 / nothing

2003-05-27 / rhetorical

2003-05-26 / day 4

2003-05-25 / day 3

2003-05-24 / day two

2003-05-22 / vacation day 1

2003-05-21 / prelude

2003-05-18 / maybe i should get a tattoo of truth on my arm

2003-05-16 / every entry should have at least three "matrix" references in it

2003-05-14 / ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2003-05-13 / my view

2003-05-10 / homework clarified

2003-05-10 / homework

2003-05-09 / a pox on the spin docters

2003-05-08 / wow

2003-05-07 / mr. lazy bones

2003-05-04 / when i am a millionare

2003-05-02 / real?

2003-05-02 / i shouldnt write this, this will be bad for me.

2003-05-01 / a basic revelation, which i had forgotton

2003-04-30 / oh, to be somewhere

2003-04-29 / alright movie hot shots

2003-04-27 / thanks for praying

2003-04-26 / wonder why no one preaches on this verse

2003-04-25 / check

2003-04-24 / God said, i said

2003-04-23 / this is probably too depressing to read

2003-04-22 / so, maybe im not as artistic as i thought

2003-04-18 / the sonic of the slums (that sounds like a good title for a short story)

2003-04-17 / this is a really stupid entry

2003-04-16 / i dont know

2003-04-15 / silence is golden?

1997-11-18 / a chance to mention some of the attributes of some of my friends

1997-11-18 / the future

1997-11-17 / quiet thoughts

1997-11-15 / its always 97 here!

1997-11-14 / im tinking faster than i can type

2003-04-06 / too much to talk about

1997-11-09 / bandwagon

1997-11-08 / a tale of three christians

1997-11-07 / small groups

2003-03-31 / my day and my dog

1997-11-04 / entry marathon

1997-11-04 / happy-sad day

1997-11-02 / call me mike

1997-11-01 / thanks

1997-10-31 / book

1997-10-28 / i dont feel like complaining but i will anyway

1997-10-26 / my idea

1997-10-25 / war

1997-10-23 / the kingdom

1997-10-22 / vulnerable

1997-10-20 / observation

1997-10-20 / an attempt at honesty

1997-10-19 / let freedom ring

1997-10-17 / monday

1997-10-16 / gee, thanks diaryland

1997-10-14 / hah!

1997-10-12 / my troubles

1997-10-10 / just a note for all of my carlsbad homies

1997-10-06 / this entry is dedicated to cyndi, who considers this to be her own personal novel

1997-10-05 / x-treme dallas weather

i / oops i did it again

am / ryan and the art chick

so / can you dig?

incredibly / i am so trendy

bored! / the march

1997-09-23 / the poem mentioned in the last entry.

1997-09-20 / a poem of sorts about a poem

2003-02-11 / missing you

1997-09-16 / conversation

1997-09-15 / im back, and im bad

2003-1-28 / sabbatical

1997-09-03 / break

2003-01-22 / a summary

2003-01-21 / just put yourself in my shoes, first

2003-01-19 / a little clarity

2003-01-17 / birthday wish

2003-01-17 / la la la

2003-01-14 / new winds

2003-01-10 / so much to write about

2003-01-08 / i can think of lots of good titles but none that apply

1997-09-01 / i am really glad that i learned how to play the drums

1997-08-30 / two very true and bizarre stories from this weekend

1997-08-29 / i want a girl with a short skirt and a long jacket- cake

1997-08-29 / my new portrait

2003-01-01 / how i rang in the new year

2002-12-31 / new year

2002-12-29 / sorted thoughts and dirty nails

2002-12-25 / merry christmas

2002-12-18 / thoughts of love

2002-12-17 / sick

2002-12-15 / the psyco-analysis of ryan connell

2002-12-13 / the show

2002-12-10 / some details for michelle

2002-12-05 / and here is a report coming live form dallas

2002-12-04 / i would qoute some taking back sunday lyrics but i cant think of any off hand

2002-12-02 / the going away party

2002-11-29 / turkey thanksgiving day

2002-11-27 / what was i thinking...?

2002-11-22 / ryan gets a tune up

2002-11-17 / buddy road trip 2002

2002-11-15 / call me daddy

2002-11-14 / bored

2002-11-13 / sick

2002-11-11 / yes, yes indeed

2002-11-07 / a brief and personal theology of worship

2002-11-07 / ryan on politics, memeory loss and other important issues

2002-11-04 / last night

2002-11-02 / wow

2002-10-30 / the legend untold

2002-10-29 / sorted thoughts

2002-10-26 / another pointless entry

2002-10-25 / manners and customs of the bible

2002-10-21 / sometimes

2002-10-16 / notes notes and more notes

2002-10-14 / my weekend

2002-10-09 / (no use for a title here)

2002-10-04 / just a thought

2002-10-01 / wake up

2002-09-27 / 8 glorious goals

2002-09-25 / vision

2002-09-24 / brrrrrr....is there a draft in here?

2002-09-20 / ah, fall

2002-09-17 / thanks

2002-09-16 / it has taken over an hour for me to write this entry!

2002-09-13 / how to kill your neighbors dog

2002-09-09 / the wax flower becomes real

2002-09-07 / if i were a flower

2002-09-05 / i said I35 west!

2002-09-02 / rancho mira sol

2002-08-27 / the mystery list and the cbs mailbag

2002-08-26 / after the cold hard winter

2002-08-23 / new beginnings

2002-08-10 / God and us

2002-08-04 / preview

2002-08-02 / narcissim and marriage quilts

2002-07-29 / a collection of random thoughts

2002-07-27 / dumb drabble from a very tired person

2002-07-12 / fun

2002-07-10 / portland????????

2002-06-24 / reflections on comments recieved

2002-06-17 / the sins of the fathers.....

2002-06-15 / an interesting revelation

2002-06-09 / S.S.A.G rules!

2002-06-06 / man, im cool

2002-06-04 / my emotions: the most thrilling roller coaster yet.

2002-05-18 / padme amidala-connell has a nice ring to it

2002-05-16 / hmmmm....

2002-05-13 / qeustions i know the answers to

2002-05-10 / what bill murray and i have in common

2002-04-29 / so im still pretty confused

2002-04-26 / oh to be like thee........

2002-04-21 / good morning officer.......

2002-04-15 / all i do is break things

2002-04-13 / hmmm........

2002-04-12 / so whats your future plans

2002-04-10 / not much in this one

2002-04-09 / holiness vs legalism

2002-04-08 / i cant think of a title for this entry

2002-04-03 / the new apartment a.k.a. what have i done!?

2002-04-02 / spring

2002-03-29 / they call me bishop, bishop stiltskin

2002-03-22 / "the law of undulation"

2002-03-18 / punk rock show

2002-03-15 / humpty dumpty sat on a wall.........

2002-03-14 / New Mexico land of entrapment

2002-03-11 / do people even look at these titles?

2002-03-10 / leave me alone kendall!

2002-03-07 / i hate musicians

2002-03-05 / help

2002-03-04 / dang im poetic when im depressed

2002-02-27 / in response to some butt kicking diaries

2002-02-23 / selfishly seeking solutions to my situations

2002-02-22 / why i am called into inner city ministry

2002-02-21 / the lessons learned......

2002-02-20 / i dont wanna be a playa'

2002-02-19 / well, here it is...........

2002-02-17 / search me and know me............

2002-02-16 / how low will i go?...................

2002-02-15 / i just got asked out by a much older woman!

2002-02-14 / much thoughts on romance

2002-02-12 / that some nice tools you got there God

2002-02-10 / im so tired i could misspell "ti" i mean "it"

2002-02-08 / train sets and heart strings pt.II

2002-02-07 / train sets and heart strings

2002-02-06 / dangerous prayers

2002-02-05 / i thought hit me at 3:15 a.m

2002-02-04 / in response to the note i recieved

2002-02-04 / dialogue with the divine pt.II

2002-02-03 / well......thats embarrasing part II

2002-02-03 / well..........thats embarrasing

2002-02-02 / confessions

2002-02-01 / not that i like her....

2002-01-30 / reflections of freedom

2002-01-30 / dialogue with the divine

2002-01-28 / deep insatiable longings

2002-01-26 / i was going to write more here but i didnt

2002-01-25 / concerning last nights entry

2002-01-24 / the adventures of ryan the single

2002-01-22 / new pastor of evangelism??????

2002-01-21 / blah blah blah

2002-01-19 / day 1