recently i have taken to learning french.
by that, i mean that i purchased a book with audio guide which sits unused on my bedroom floor.
still, i can't help myself from mumbling things that kind of sound french when around others.
"what did you say"
"oh, nothing, i am learning french."
i'm such a faker.
the other day i found a cross on my bedroom floor. i rub it to keep me calm. the fact that it is a cross has nothing to do with it. its all about the texture. smooth on one side. rough on the other. rubbing it gives my hands something to do. it calms my mind. its the same reason why i smoke and pretend that i know sign language.
i used my stress relieving cross a good deal last night. it was the first time that i have seen emily since the break-up. i was like a walking ball of akward. couldnt stop moving. found nothing in my mind to say. i think she thinks i am crazy. i am not. just around her. and 98% of the human population.
i think if i was in a militia i would be the tech guy. not so much because i am really good at technological stuff but because i really suck when it comes to guns. plus, given the demographic that most militas fall in, i think i stand a good chance of being the smartest one there. or at least the most nerdy.
you need to be a nerd if your going to be a tech guy.
i am trying to leave my room more often. yesterday i spent the entire day at the movie theater. i watched "crash" and "kingdom of heaven". my next step, after i have mastered the art of not being locked in my room, is to interact with people.
this will probably take some time. i am thinking about practicing with mannequins. i would tape stereos to their heads and practice talking to them. maybe then i could get some good use out of my learn to speak french tapes. though, on the other hand, i think all of our conversations would end up with me yelling "I CANT UNDERSTAND YOU! I DONT SPEAK FRENCH!"
so, you never know.
sometimes i wish i was a raver.
well, anyways,je pars maintenant. pensez-vous ceci est-vous r�ellement fran�ais ?
il est ! je t'aime tous, bien, tous except� ceux qui sont
unnatractive ou stupides. Dieu B�nissent l'Am�rique !
amen.
4:27 p.m. - 2005-05-17
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