despondant, i have spent my entire day contemplating the lack of a phone call.
i'm sure there is a reason.
there's gotta be a reason.
maybe she forgot my phone number.
maybe she has amnesia.
okay, maybe not.
perhaps i should call her.
see why she hasnt called.
but i dont want to be pushy.
and besides if she wanted to hang out with me today she would call.
since she hasnt called, logic can only deduce...
i thought that dating someone meant that you never had to spend a saturday night alone.
or a friday night for that matter.
but i am.
but i did.
and now i just dont know what to do.
she's been distant all week.
i am probably just paranoid.
just being good old neurotic ryan.
sure thats what it is.
all in my mind.
i just wish i knew for sure.
one way or the other.
either way would be better than rotting in this relational purgatory.
someone please tell me how to turn off my emotions, they are obviously not functioning right.
7:21 p.m. - 2004-10-23
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