Time and holidays and days and years are all just a social construct.
Well, so is money but today I paid my rent. Today is New Year's Day.
I used to go out and celebrate. Since I was never really a "going out" kind of person, I tended to overhype it in my head and would end up especially drunk and sad and disappointed.
But now like Christmas, like most days, I prefer the quiet.
I have been pretty sick most of the weekend. Maybe my auto-immune bullshit, maybe the stomach flu, maybe aliens, who knows.
But tonight I am in my little guard shack, dehydrated and tired, writing to you my dear beloved fellow travelers.
I am thinking of all of you and your writings and your struggles. How lucky I am to know some of you outside of Diaryland, how only one of you I knew from in-real-life before we found this site.
I am also thinking of all the other people I know. Which is a lot, when you think about it. Not just your friends, but everyone you know.
I wonder what thoughts are in each person's head right now. How many are sad? How many are inspired? How many are watching the exact same show?
What are any of us doing?
Why do some of us pretend to know?
(Or do they know? Do they really know? Can we know who knows and who is just bullshitting us?)
I think I am about to throw up again.
Which is true, but also such a metaphor (maybe).
(maybe not).
I wish you all well, everyone. Whatever you are thinking about. Whatever lies in store for you. My hope for you is your survival.
My prayer for you is that you flourish.
Happy New Year. Happy Same Year. Happy Right Now.
9:08 p.m. - 2024-01-01
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