I am laying on a pile of my stuff.
Cozy stuff. Blankets and things.
Stuff that I kind of want to keep, because it's cozy and I'll probably be sleeping in my car sometimes, but stuff that I don't really have room for in my car.
And I probably don't need more than one blanket.
In the pile of stuff are two onesies. Both from someone who I loved dearly. I definitely don't need any onesies. I don't know when I would ever wear them. But she gave them to me and they are cute and I really don't want to part with them. But am I really going to slag them across the country with me?
Probably.
I imagine that there will be times when I want comfort and they will provide me with some. They will remind that I am loved somewhere on the planet, even if I don't feel all that loved at that particular place and time.
But that's the thing: I've got loads of sentimental garbage that will give me comfort.
I am looking around at my mostly empty apartment and the pile of stuff that I am taking with me is way bigger than I expected it to be.
But I don't want to get rid of any of it.
Going on a forever road trip is hard. I don't know what I'll need.
So I imagine that though I am taking a lot of stuff now, by the time I actually leave Denver next month there will be considerably less. And probably some more different stuff.
In the meantime, I am moving into the place where I am house sitting tonight. And I will meet some 29 year old blonde woman from Australia who will be living in the basement.
And I will have a few friends over to help ring in the new year, because apparently my new temporary place has a rooftop with a great view of the city and fireworks.
I don't fully feel ready for this new adventure, but it's here. It's today.
Here we go.
Time to load all this stuff up into my car.
1:17 p.m. - 2017-12-31
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