tried my hand at praying today.
"where are you...Jesus...i dont want to end up like this"
hard to describe my despair
but its more than just a personality quirk
maybe i am not mentally ill
but i know i am not mentally well
these things have hollowed out my soul:
lack of purpose, direction, vision, interests, etc..
strong sense of failure and shortcoming
sinful depravity
lost connection between God and i
job that requires me to have that connection
parents who blame themselves for anything i do wrong
inability to communicate anything deeper than shallow small talk
even now, i cant fully describe what is on my mind.
2:17 p.m. - 2003-06-06
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