"the world has got me thinking such awful thoughts
my heads a carousel of pictures
the spinning never stops
i wish that someone would walk in front
and i'll follow the leader."-bright eyes
i couldnt sleep last night
and it wasnt because of lack of fatigue
i was exhausted
and as lay in bed i felt my body resting
but i wouldnt, or perhaps couldnt give my brain the same luxury
my thoughts were filled with dancing iraqis
swindling ceos
and all that is wrong with the world
i thought about God
and how little we know about him
i thought about community
and how many lonely people there are
and what, if anything, i could do to help them
i thought about ideals
and about vision
and if i had any
and if i could live up to them
i thought about how i want to be remembered
as a good father, husband, and friend
caring little if i am a good speaker, philospher, writer
i thought about how messy my room is
and how my mom would dissaprove
and how i should have better posters on the wall
i thought about taxes
but not for long
no one wants to think about taxes
and above all these things
and by far the most pressing
was i thought about her
and how i cant remember what her laugh sounds like
and what would it take to remedy that.
and sometime after that
i fell asleep
8:50 p.m. - 1997-11-17
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