here is my problem
in spite of my ever increasing vocubulary there is one word i can never seem to pronounce
and no its not the word comfortable (which i admittingly still have trouble with)
for some strange reason i have never been able to say the word "no"
i couldnt when i was a kid. even when my brother would want to practice his new hog-tying skills on me. (for all of you non westerners this is a rodeo category consisting of roping a cow/me and then tying his hind legs together with the front right leg, or in my case my arm.)
the word wouldnt form as a teenager when asked to buy my friend (and his girlfriend and his little brother) a ticket to the movies.
and still now as a twenty two year old full grown (at least physically) man i am still uncapable of saying "no"
and that is exactly why i am still "dating" the art chick.
thats why i am in the posession of two gay guys' phone numbers.
thats why i just gave my crack addict homeless friend five bucks for "food" which he promised he would give back tonight
thats why i just helped out my local hindu congregation by buying incense and a book on reincarnation with what was left of my cash
yeah i need to learn to say no
but until then feel free to ask me to do anything for you
because you know that i will begrudginly oblige
5:46 a.m. - 1997-10-12
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