I got my car back from the shop yesterday. Maxxed out the ole credit card to do it. it was the drive shaft. $1,100 to fix it. My free car has now cost me over two grand in the three months I've owned it.
Even though I don't want to be in Tulsa, I got two jobs here last week. One at the bookstore where I used to work (and very much love). The other is at a dispensary which seems maybe a bit on the shady side and has never once felt right to me in my gut. I have a hard time distinguishing between anxiety and intuition, but I have no logical reason to feel this bad about this job so I feel like this is going to turn out to be another one of those "should've listened to your gut" learning opportunities. We'll see.
Either way, both jobs combined ($10 an hour and 10-15 hours a week at each) will not help me escape and get back on the road.
I want to get the fuck out of here. I want a different life completely. Have you ever considered faking your death? Starting over with everything? I think about it all the time.
Feeling a little too awful (physically, mentally, spiritually) to write more today.
So instead I will just try to accept it all with grace.
Knowing that I don't know what the future holds.
Expecting a plot twist at any moment.
12:04 p.m. - 2022-08-09
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