Two weeks ago, I wrote on here that I felt I was at a point in my life where I wanted to take some risky leap off a cliff, but was stuck in a meadow with no edges in sight.
Last week, all of the ground around me disappeared and I found myself standing at a precipice.
And I made the decision to jump.
I chose to put my shit in storage and hit the open road and write some deep metaphysical type bullshit and do drugs and find God or at least a lot of interesting women.
And that is equal parts terrifying and exhilarating.
But what's interesting is that the last few days, I have realized that there is steady ground behind me.
My landlord said they'd be willing to forego the rent increase for a month or two.
A high paying coffee shop called me for an interview.
Someone has an in at some tech start up, and can at least get me an interview. If I got it, I'd be making a decent living.
But I still choose to jump.
I turned all off that down so that I can pursue a foolish dream that I am in no way prepared for.
And I am so fucking glad I did.
Still terrified, no doubt. But I know now that this is my choice. This is what I want.
And as I step out into the unknown, I find my steps for more solid than they were when I was hiding in safety.
5:50 p.m. - 2017-12-08
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