The very first thought I had upon waking up this morning was that our sexuality is one of the most sacred things we have, but yet is also quite common.
It's like how we treat water. There is nothing more essential for human life, yet we treat water like it's nothing. It's there whenever we turn on the tap.
And I think about how detached and removed we are from our food. I did not know the chicken I ate last night. I had no contact with the farmer who grew my food or the truck driver that delivered it to me. I have no connection to the soil.
Everything is sanitized and prettified and packaged for my convenience.
I have really been thinking a lot about sex recently.
No, not in the normal way where I think about how much I'd like to have it (though, sure, I have been thinking about that too).
I have been thinking about sex in relation to Samsara; how both sexual desire and our culture's reaction to that desire directly contributes to our spiritual suffering.
Not to say that sex is bad. On the contrary. It's one of the best and most beautiful human experiences possible.
I just want to reclaim and reconnect with the sacred mystery of sex.
I am tired of the convenient shiny plastic wrapping of porn. It's junk food. So processed that there is nothing real there.
And because I am not presently (and might never be) monogamous, I want to be better at honoring the people that choose to share their bodies with me.
I think I am pretty good already at negotiation and consent and setting clear expectations, but I want to be deeper than that somehow.
How can I honor my food when I had no part in its growth and preparation?
How can I honor the people who bless me with their most intimate selves?
I don't know yet.
But I am working on it.
8:17 a.m. - 2017-06-28
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