Today in my Psychology of Sexuality class we watched footage of a woman giving birth.
It was unpleasant. If you've seen it (or lived it) you know.
After the film, the professor asked what everyone thought. There was a lot of nervous chuckling. One girl said that she would never have kids.
The professor then asked what the guys in the room thought about what we had just seen.
I am one of the three guys in this class and the only one that ever talks, so she looked at me expectantly.
I said that out of context, giving birth seems painful and loud and smelly and kind of gross. I said it confirms that God is not a woman, because seriously, she would have come up with a better system.
But, I said, in context...
The idea that this would be when I meet my child for the first time, well I imagine that it would seem beautiful and poetic and perfect.
But then again, I won't be the one pushing that thing out of me.
I still thought about it all day.
Then tonight, my friend and occasional writing partner Josh invited me over to his place. We were talking about the election when this voice rings out from upstairs:
"Daddy, I gotta go poop."
His son, I believe, is four.
So Josh goes upstairs and I listen to them talk as Josh sits with him in the bathroom.
Before too long, Josh's two year old daughter is woken by their talking and so she joins them in the bathroom. Josh trying to get them both back to bed, they both full of questions and chatter.
And ultimately it turned out that Josh's son didn't even have to go to the bathroom, but just wanted to look at the big book of animals that he gets to look at while pooping. He is obsessed with rattlesnakes right now.
And it was sometime while listening to that conversation that I realized I want to be a dad.
Obviously, that's not entirely up to me. I have to find myself a willing partner first.
But still, it's a nice thought.
10:25 p.m. - 2016-10-17
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