I am working on my anxiety issues and trying to overcome my overwhelming insecurity about stuff.
But I am failing at it right now.
When it comes to female desire, I feel invisible.
Completely and utterly invisible to women.
I am not seen as a sexual object.
I am not sure that I am seen at all.
This is unsettling if it's true.
It feels true.
But I can't trust anything that I think about myself.
At least I know that now.
But what do I do?
Women won't want me until I am confident.
I won't feel confident (in this area) until I am wanted by women.
Sometimes I feel like I am going to die alone.
And by "sometimes" I mean most times.
I wish I had whatever it is that I'm lacking.
Especially if all I am lacking is a brain that is nicer to me.
10:30 p.m. - 2014-12-10
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