People tell you that it is what's on the inside that counts.
That, dear friends, is a lie.
What's inside doesn't matter.
It's what you do with what's inside that counts.
There are a lot of qualities that I really like about me. But I wonder how apparent those qualities are to the rest of the world.
If I think nice thoughts about someone without expressing them, those thoughts may as well not exist.
All of my skill and talent and great ideas are also worth nothing until someone else can see them and benefit.
I cover up a lot of my insecurities with sarcasm, and I wonder how many people see through all of that. Does everyone else just think I'm a smart ass?
I say all of this because I am not liking the people that seem to be the most attracted to me.
I am wondering which "me" it is that they see.
I want to be seen as
fun
smart
soulful
compassionate
kind
a man of integrity
But I honestly don't know how much of that actually shines through my actions.
Faith without works is dead, says the Apostle James.
This has to be true with other virtues as well.
What is compassion without a compassionate act?
What is kindness?
What is love?
Too often, we become afraid to express ourselves because of fear of rejection or something else. But when we do that, when we give in to that fear, we create a false image of ourselves.
No one can see the true us.
Which fosters more rejection.
I have no solution for this.
The best I can do is remain mindful and bring everything good within me out to the surface.
10:10 p.m. - 2014-08-05
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