Alayna and I are doing fine now.
We are not in an open relationship, per se. Neither of us are seeing anyone else. We have just took a step back from our commitment to each other.
And this is fine. It's beyond fine, actually.
Because what I actually need is to find a self-sustaining job, and figure out how to manage both my physical and mental health. These things are my real priority. They take a lot of my time.
Not to mention school and art and the fact that I am trying to create and run a worldviews forum on campus.
I have a lot on my plate. No time for a wifey or girlfriend or whatever.
But Alayna gives me what I need without the pressure of a commitment.
Sex?
Well, yes.
But more importantly companionship and support.
I don't have to navigate all of this alone.
And I am not about to give that up just because I am not getting everything I want. I am not even capable of handling everything I want right now.
So I am now going to try to turn my normal romantic obsessions into something more productive. Like curing cancer.
Okay, not curing cancer.
Into reading more Harry Potter.
Yeah, that's something I can handle.
2:19 p.m. - 2013-03-07
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