I am writing on here because I am a little lonely.
It's my fault I am lonely. There is a birthday party that I've been invited to happening just a few blocks from my apartment.
Tomorrow I will tell them I forgot about it.
I can't remember ever being good with people. As far back as I can think I've mostly just wanted to be alone.
My therapist thinks this is unhealthy.
Maybe she's right.
Fuck me though, I am a man that likes to be alone. As soon as I leave the house I find myself wondering when I can get back. The other day I was on a date and I found myself hoping that it doesn't turn into sex so that I could just go home and sleep by myself in my own bed.
But sometimes, I get lonely.
Tonight I am lonely.
Not lonely enough to go out and get a girlfriend or something (I've realized that this feeling never lasts long enough for me to really ever have a relationship), but lonely enough to wish that I had someone tonight.
I guess I wish I was better at one night stands.
But something tells me that they don't feel the void nearly as well as marijuana and movies.
9:36 p.m. - 2012-08-26
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