hello
my name is ryan.
i am 27.
i am full of bad decisions
and wishful thinking.
i have been lost
for years
and am nowhere near
being found.
sometimes i enjoy that.
but not tonight.
i read often.
i think to ponder things.
sometimes i paint
but not often
sometimes i write
but now only rarely
i used to think i was a genius
now i know the truth
i am bad with money
infamously bad with money
every paycheck
i payback
the loans
that i had to take out to pay bills
but to payback
with my paycheck
i need to take out new loans
this has happened every paycheck since october.
it seems it will never go away.
i hate my job
i seriously despise my job with all that i have
but i am not suited for another job
another job won't pay as well
another job won't make me different.
my name is ryan
i just turned 27
a three toed sloth
could count the amount
of friends i have in this town
on one hand
i am depressed.
i've been depressed for some time
i hate being depressed
especially when it seems
that i am faking it
for something as silly as
attention
this is who i am
i am ryan
hello
12:34 a.m. - 2008-01-31
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