soon, i have decided, i shall return to the place of innumerable personal alters.
i shall make my pilgrimage back to where i wrestled with God and gave in to my demons.
i will revisit the crossroads where me and my youth parted ways.
i am going back to dallas.
it has been over two years and i never realized-until this morning-how incredibly significant a return trip would mean.
when i left Dallas i left the ministry.
i left all of my traditional spiritual values, guilt, and legalism in a crumpled mess by the window. something for the next renters to deal with.
i also left my words. the good ones. the ones that i intended to give the grandkids. need to get those back. i hope that i can find them.
one cannot see how much they've changed until the visit who they were. measuring one's head against marks on the door post.
trying on the cheerleader's outfit that you wore in highschool.
visiting old friends and seeing if they recognize you.
i am going back to dallas.
walking again through the ruins of my youthful ambitions.
looking for remnants of my spirituality.
for anything that can be salvaged.
i will be there july 9-15. anyone have a couch for a weary pilgrim?
anyone have a story to tell?
10:22 a.m. - 2006-06-26
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