i'm oh so terrifically bored.
wandering
wondering
one during
disdainfully contented to sit at home
with my rooms full of music and my chairs full of books.
defecated television.
silent typewriter.
hollow mind.
but then today.
so many days.
my heart and lungs and liver stage a mutiny against my skin.
all of me wants to be outside of me.
sometimes i am sure that i am capable of flying.
i am just afraid of high wires and low flying planes.
time seems to have synchronized itself with my heart beat.
every second another beat closer to death.
another thing i havent done.
i keep my dreams in a box in the closet.
i take them out occasionally to dust them off.
they are starting to crack with age.
i am at the point of infatuation where i am completly useless to anyone or anything.
scribbling her name in my sketchbook
over
and over
again.
i want to capture life in a glass jar.
dissect it. understand it.
then saute the good parts.
i need to scream a wild and joyous scream.
set up a circus in my living room.
a jungle in the kitchen.
my life sits too tired on the couch watching the news.
becomes annoyed by my persistent pleas to play.
such a young heart.
such an old soul.
sledgehammer.
jackhammer.
anvil.
wrecking ball.
destroy my mental block.
12:37 p.m. - 2005-10-20
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