for the last several years i have left intense worship services with an empty feeling inside.
similar to the feeling one gets right after visiting a whore.
intimate moments are meant for intimate relationships.
and i honestly have to say that between God and me, there is no longer that sense of intimacy.
its not that i dont want it.
i just dont know how to get it.
believe me i've tried to be there
(this diary is a good testament to my attempts)
but somehow i always fall short.
nonetheless, God is always there during worship.
he speaks through me.
through me to people who have good relationships with him.
these intimate moments.
can i forego them for a real relationship?
can i just go back to the ways things were?
7:47 p.m. - 2004-08-08
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