i am not sure what to write about today.
i know that its been months since i have been in such a bad mood, but i am not sure why.
everything is pissing me off today.
i am mad that my roomate decided that he would refinish the cabinets and is now mad at me for not wanting to help him.
i am mad at how many conversations i seem to get into concerning politics and religion.
i am mad at how the new pedro the lion is so different than all of his older stuff.
and numerous other things.
i guess i am just lonely.
i guess i just want to be understood.
the things that i used to turn to for solace just dont cut it anymore.
i had a long talk with a stripper last night about how i am trying to completly cut the sex industry out of my life.
she told me i was wrong; she just wanted my money.
i often drive around to collect my thoughts and enjoy the streams of taillights and headlights going on for miles.
i feel today as if i have never stopped driving.
that all i am doing is searching.
taking long pit stops at unusual road side attractions.
convincing myself that i am fun.
fooling myself into believing that i actually exist.
i have no idea what i am talking about right now.
but i can visualize myself walking in this desert. looking at road signs trying to decipher their meaning. feeling lost i have layed down.
i am not sure if i will ever get up again.
10:28 a.m. - 2004-06-01
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