i am a bad christian.
i must be.
i already kind of knew that, but know i am certain.
this all came about because of the passion of the christ.
the movie, not the actual passion of the christ.
i was excited for its release, but i must admit that the excitement came mostly because once it was out people would stop talking about it.
i am a movie nerd. i talk alot about movies. its my job. the rest of the world should not be like me. its wierd.
the movie itself was fantastic.
great use of imagery and symbolism.
the story was told in a fresh and original way, which is very hard to do considering the subject matter.
but here is where i discovered that i am didnt make par for christianity.
after the movie i noticed people crying; others were completly taken aback, completly breathless; the group of friends with me claimed to be all tingly inside. one friend even said that his life was changed.
me? i kept thinking that monica bellucci was the hottest mary magdelene i have ever seen.
(which, in my defense had some spiritual merit to it. i mean Jesus had to be tempted when around mary if she was even one third as attractive as monica bellucci, but yet he was without sin. now thats some will-power!)
the point here is that i wasnt moved. at least not in the way that everyone else was.
it seriously made me worry about my spiritual condition.
i havent "felt" anything for or against God in months, possibly years.
i'm just numb.
just apathetic.
kind of scary really.
but since i dont feel scared, the fear is fleeting.
soon, i will be distracted again.
monica bellucci was really attractive.
see, its already working.
10:14 a.m. - 2004-02-26
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