driving.
speeding.
screaming.
profanity fogs windshield.
wrecks barely missed.
tired frustration and
barreling, weighty thoughts
keep my foot pressed to accelorator.
i no longer think i'm crazy,
i am way too sane
and sanity is driving me mad.
why rationalize everything?
why scrutinize anything?
thoughts like concrete,
pour into my head
and cause me to sink like a stone.
i welcome the drowing,
the dull pain that sets deep within
making me numb;
making me surrender;
making me speed.
run a red light,
and feel the rush that
only rebellion can bring;
synthetic exhilaration
reminds me that i am alive;
alive but suffocating.
you told me about your God;
about your latest bible study
about how you would fix the wrongs of the church.
you told me about war;
about bi-partisan politics
about how only your side was right.
you qouted movies
sang your favorite songs
representing the joy of being shallow.
my reply was hollow;
nothing but empty words,
exactly what you wanted to hear
tired of being captive to false pretensions
i got in my car and left.
and drove.
and sped.
and screamed into the void of night.
1:25 p.m. - 2003-12-09
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