so i was tempted to write one of those God said; i said entries today, but i feel asleep before God concluded his point.
after my entry last night, i felt quite bad.
afterall, these people ARE terribly lonely, and they really dont have anyone to talk to.
perhaps i was selfish, to resent them talking to me.
or perhaps not.
where were they when i was lonely and needed someone to talk to?
i'll tell you where, the same place they were last night,
talking to me about their problems.
and really i do enjoy (most of) these people.
they (for the most part) are my friends.
but i do think that these kinds of people represent the reason why i am not so ready and willing to share my feelings.
because people who talk too much about themselves most always become a burden to the people around them.
i have always been afraid of being a burden.
thats why i dont talk to pastors. they are always so busy.
thats why i dont talk to my friends. i am afraid that they will no longer want to spend time with me.
thats why i would resent my therapist. she'd listen to me, but only because she was paid to do so.
thats why i dislike lonely, talkative people. they do what i wish i could, but am afraid to do.
so, maybe i am selfish.
or maybe not.
5:05 p.m. - 2003-11-13
Recent entries:
Awake in My Tiny Cage - 2014-11-03
God. - 2014-10-27
I remember me. - 2014-10-17
The Paper - 2014-10-13
A Post About Not Doing Anything - 2014-10-12
My profile
Archives
Notes
Diaryland
Random
RSS
others:
i-lost-sarah
aryssa90
newschick
stardumb
hexes
gonzoprophet
meffinmisfit
cybers1ut
the-grey-one
movingsands
dangerspouse
unowhatilike
silverluna
elusive-you
tobehis
kenny-loo
brothasistas
my-rant
is-life
godsintimate
ruby--sky
creme-egg
darkly-blue
reevo
similar
dooki
dagkyo
obijuan
buddyboy5
u2october
nudeplatypus
mojo1915
baby--girl
cindylou03
alwaysinhim
greenstar7
krunkjazz
dudemanflab
spittingame