i am almost certain that i have athazagoraphobia.(Fear of Being Forgotten, Fear of Being Ignored, and Fear of Forgetting)
thanks yecenia (did i spell your name right?) for informing me of such a paraphonia (if thats a word).
its in the waiting
thats what gets me
the waiting
it was easy enough to dream my dreams
relatively simple to act upon them
but then the waiting
surprisingly, no editors were waiting at my doorstoop the morning i decided to be a writer
i still dont have a movie deal
i am still not wise, and holy, and cultured
and i decided to be those things years ago.
the waiting can be a killer
most artist dont become famous until after they die.
i wonder how that felt.
to die in obscurity thinking that you've accomplished absolutely nothing
when in reality, you are only twenty years from becoming world renown.
the waiting is harsh
even spiritually, waiting is no fun
though it is crucial to spritual succuss (whatever spiritual succuss is)
waiting
waiting
i am tired of waiting
but i now realize that its ineveitable
and so i wait
3:03 p.m. - 2003-10-29
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