3 hours ago i was a bit emotional and wrote an entry that i now somewhat regret.
i am not dissolving this diary.
its funny how i want to get rid of my diary the minute it actually does what i wanted it to do.
i think that i wanted that reaction of concern and parental phone calls.
this diary is more than just venting and recording my daily routine.
this diary is a cry for help.
i write because no one listened when i talked.
because people belittled my cries for help, and took them for whining.
i write because i only know the "what" and not the "why"
because i choose not to be ignored anymore
i write to be heard
to be noticed
to let people know that i am screwed up
that i have problems that are beyond me
and that yes, you should be concerned.
i am writing because i have a need to confess
but no one is physically available.
i write because i dont know how to talk.
so this diary will stay open right here.
and to all that i influence,
face your problems dead on
ask questions, prepare to be wrong
dont be afraid of what people expect of you
and be honest
be honest
be honest
honest with your self
your friends
and your God
7:50 p.m. - 2003-09-26
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