my hair is quite the mess.
full of dead ends, loose hairs, and this really annoying tuft of curl behind my left ear.
i have the impulse to shave it off here and now.
twice this last month i have been told that my not wanting to preach is, in effect, running away from my calling.
both times i have scoffed.
has God called me?
absolutely
has God called me for the specific job of preaching?
i sincerely hope not.
this brings to me the question of what it means to do something great for God.
on the night i was saved, a complete stranger approached me and told me that i "was going to do great things for God".
as i have mentioned before, i believed that this meant that i would become a household name amongst christian circles.
the next benny hinn, so to speak.
but now, i am not so sure if that is "great" in God's standards.
i think that by me having doubts in the middle of a completly secularized society is helping to fulfill my calling much more than being cocksure behind a pulpit in churchdom.
i think i am right where God wants me.
and i really hope that being "great" in the kingdom of God has more to it than just being a good speaker.
4:55 p.m. - 2003-08-29
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