last nights energy
coupled with my recent diary entries
are one example of why i might be a borderline manic-depressive.
i couldnt sit still last night.
my thoughts, my heart, my words, my fingers all moving at a non stop rate.
boundless, endless, inexplicable energy.
no caffeine to blame it on.
i was talking like one of those madonna dance remixes.
you know, the ones were they dont change the song at all, but just speed it up a whole lot.
i had to take not one, but two brisk walks around the three block area that makes up deep ellum.
just because i couldnt sit still.
last night everything seemed different.
the way i walked and talked, and socialized was quite different than my normal worried gaze and posture.
i felt like the real me again.
but here is where i explain why i dont think i am manic-depressive.
when i woke this morning it was all gone.
no energy, no joy, nothing.
just the same old me.
one night of energy is not enough to make me bi-polar or manic.
i need months of one particular mood swing (at least thats what i think).
its too bad, i was hoping this extra energy would last long enough for me to become buff.
4:10 p.m. - 2003-08-13
Recent entries:
Awake in My Tiny Cage - 2014-11-03
God. - 2014-10-27
I remember me. - 2014-10-17
The Paper - 2014-10-13
A Post About Not Doing Anything - 2014-10-12
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