here comes some honesty.
in my present opinion the will of God is not cool.
as a fifteen year old i wanted nothing more than to be a writer.
God wanted me to be a preacher.
so i started learning how to be a preacher.
as a seventeen year old i wanted to go to college.
God wanted me to go to master's commission.
so i spent three years doing school work that will not transfer or hold any credibility in the real world.
God apparently likes me uneducated.
it was because of God's will that i returned to carlsbad when i graduated.
i didnt want to go.
it was because of God's will that i sacrificed all my dreams on a tear-soaked alter to come back to Dallas.
God willed me to a friendless church
and an unpaying job.
God allows me to see the things that i am good at, and envision things that i want to do,
but then forbids me from doing them.
and now, the will of God speaks again.
my pastor, his wife, my manager, and another member of my church have all prayed and all agree that God wants me to stay here.
do i disagree?
not at all, it seems like something God would do.
praise the perfect will of God
4:01 p.m. - 2003-08-12
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