well i started my new job today.
and boy does it suck
oh well, im getting paid like a mad man. a mad man who gets paid a lot, so im content
in other thoughts........
i have a week to decide if i should move to russia, a few days to decide what i should do about this youth pastor thing, and forever to regret the decision im about to make.
dear lord, im tired of living for me.....
im tired of having to say that.
why cant i just surrender? really, how hard is that? i know you know the way so much better than i, but still i hold on to my puny little life and puny little future as if it actually means something without you.
God please, please, please take my future out of my trembling clutching hands and never give it back to me
all i do is break things
8:02 p.m. - 2002-04-15
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