its almost 2 in the morning. why the flaming crap am i still awake?
i am thinking about only writing stuff about girls i like and other gossip so that people will talk about my diary like they used to. oh well, cant win them all.
i can feel myself backsliding. i know i am becoming more and more entrapped by the seductive allurance of sin.
in years past, i could be going through a hard time and be weeping my guts out at the alter asking God to send someone to pray for me, or talk to me or anything. i found out however that during those times people never thought to pray for me because they assumed i was taking part in some intimate experience with Jesus.
I have been known as the "spiritual one" since the day i got saved. i have always been the one that people have went to when they had problems or needed prayer. i have always been the one that has it together spiritually and who never has any problems.
it is great to be me.
unless of course people have been wrong over the last six years, and maybe just maybe ryan is human after all.
i know this all may sound pretentious and egotistical, but its true. for whatever reason i have been placed upon a pedestal of holiness and spirituality.
i have fallen off
please, pray for me.
1:47 a.m. - 2002-03-15
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