i probably shouldnt write in the state i am in.
i feel so depressed tonight. why? heck if i know. i just do.
sometimes i feel like i dont belong here, that i should be somewhere else. its not that i feel like i am better than anyone, or worse for that matter. just different.
i remember thinking the same thing while i was in masters commission. i thought it before i moved to carlsbad the first time. it seems that i always end up thinking that i dont belong. is it just me? do other people feel this way? the greatest human need is to be fully known and fully loved. i dont feel like i have experienced that completly. i also dont feel like i have allowed myself too.
i love my friends. God has blessed me with so many who care so deeply. why cant i let them inside me? i feel like i am fronting even on the wondrous diaryland, the tool to make us transparent.
in other thinking, i waited a real long time to download the "newest version of instant messenger" and it doesnt look any different. whats up wit that?
10:03 p.m. - 2002-02-23
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