i am the stupidest man alive.
in my "paper" journal last year i wrote an entry concerning how i believed that God wanted me to stop my flirtatious (misspelled) ways.
monday night i felt God pressing me on this once again.
last night, i now see why God would ask this of me.
up until this past week i have found flirting to be quite fun and innocent. i greatly enjoy flirting. i love the thrill of it. i love how it makes me feel to see a girl laugh at my jokes, or smile in response to my "cool masculine ways". like i said i found all of this innocent and fun.
recently however i actually began to be interested in a very special young lady. whom i like a great deal.
i told this young lady will call her "girl a" that i was interested in her and everything seemed to be okay until last night.
last night i was on the internet when one of my "innocent flirtations" from well over a year ago popped up and started a conversation. this young lady made no qaulms about her interests in me and how she would like to start a dating relationship with yours truly. apparently she didnt know that my flirting with her was innocent and fun.
now God had told me that i needed to knock this flirting business off the night before because i was wrongly and selfishly (mispelled) playing with girls emotions, so has a christian with faith and a desire for obedience i did what i thought was best and well...flirted back.
after my converstation with this girl was over i realised what i had done. i was so stupid. i dont like this girl, i have no interests at all in her as a person. i only flirted to boost my ego.
now there are a few lessons i learned from this experience and to read those read the next entry.
5:15 p.m. - 2002-02-20
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