recently, as in today and part of yesterday, i have been plagued again with convictions.
dont ask me how or why. they just showed up.
and honestly, (honest being a word that i am apparently not all that familiar with given how many lies i have caught myself in the last 24 hours) it kind of sucks.
but, i suppose, its better than being numb and listless.
all i know is that a desire to become a man of integrity is now culminating in my brain.
before, all i had was the appearance of integrity.
even in my days as a minister.
i think i am getting tired of show and pretention.
i want to be real, honest, straightforward. a man. for the first time i ever, i finally want to be a man.
dont worry though, after a nice exfoliating facial and a few hours of sex and the city, i'll be right as rain.
or will i?
7:29 p.m. - 2005-05-16
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