me: so, you watch movies right?
God: of course.
me: did you see the matrix?
God: yeah, two and three kind of sucked, but the first one was pretty cool.
me: agreed. remember that cat who betrayed neo? the one who prefered the fake world of the matrix to knowledge of the truth?
God: yeah, he was joey the pants on the sopranos.
me:you watch hbo?
God: sometimes. i've heard people preach against it so much, i got a little curious.
me: interesting. anyways, i really feel like that guy in the matrix sometimes. i mean, ever since i left all the legalism and religion of the church "matrix", i have felt totally lost and without purpose. on top of that, i have had nothing but doubt and struggles concerning my faith. sometimes it would be nice to just be blissfully ignorant of real christianity and opt back into just being a sheep at some big church somewhere.
God: hmm. that reminds me of some people i once knew. their names and places arent really important, but they were being oppressed by this guy, total jerk man, making them build his pyramids and what not, so i go in and set them free. not only that, but i get this great place set up for them. really sweet. but you know what happens? they start feeling a little bit like you. thinking that maybe i sent them out to the desert to die.
me: well, you did keep them in the desert for forty years.
God: ah! and why do you think i did that?
me: uhm, i dont know. because you suck?
God: close. because there was still a lot of egypt in them. they would'nt have know what to do in the promised land if they went straight there, and i needed them to be ready. there was a lot of stuff they needed to know before moving in.
me: so, what your saying is?
God: you still have a lot of church in you. not to mention a lot of sin and a lot of misconceptions about me as well. we need to get these things out of you, so thats why you live in unhappy desert land.
me: well, this sucks. for the past several years, our relationship has been nothing but struggle. i have no assurance, no sense of future. i dont know whats up and down anymore. honestly, i dont know how much more i can take.
God: i do
me: great, thats very assuring.
God: it will be eventually. but for now, take good notes. you'll only get this experience once.
me: good point. so you wanna go watch a movie?
God: sure. i have been really jonesing for some mel brooks.
me: sounds great. i really wish i had a better ending for this entry.
God: so do i, son. so do i.
9:31 p.m. - 2004-08-22
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